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I picked up the creamy sheets; always bad news on cream-colored paper came from Foxworth Hall
My dearest darling Jory,
I'm a coward I've always known that, and hoped you'd never find out You were always the one with all the strength I love you, and no doubt will always love you, but I can't live with a ain
I look at you in that horrible chair that you've grown to accept, when I cannot accept it, or your handicap Your parents caedI feel I'ht say or do soot to leave, or lose my mind
You see,in this house, this horrible, hateful house with all its deceiving beauty I lie on my lonely bed and drea even when it isn't I've got to go back to where I can hear it play, and if that is ugly and selfish, as I know it is, forgive me, if you can
Say kind things about h to ask questions about their mother Say those nice words even if they aren't true, for I know I've failed you just as iven you every reason to hate me, but please don't remember er, and very much in control of our lives
Don't bla, or bla is my own fault You see, I'm not real, I never was, and I never will be I can't face up to the kind of cruel reality that destroys lives and leaves behind broken dreams Then, too, remember this: I'm the fantasy you helped create out of your desire and my own
So farewell, my love, my first and sweetest love, and sadly perhaps my only true love Find someone rare like your ave you the ability to cope with reality, no matter how harsh
God would have been kind if he had given me your kind of mother
Yours regretfully, Mel
The note fell fro its pathetic certain way to the carpet Both Jory and I stared at it lying there, so sad--and so final
"It's over, Moan when I elve and she was eleven, all over I built ave her the best I had to offer, and still it wasn't enough once the glaone"
How could I tell him that Melodie wouldn't have lasted even if he was still on stage dancing Soth, his innate ability to cope with situations beyond her ability to comprehend
I shookunfair "I'm sorry, Jory, so terribly sorry" I didn't say, perhaps you'll be better off without her
"I' to meet my eyes "What woman ant me now?"