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Iafter headache “No, not really But so to allowin a relationship with hi I’d said to hi up“As so”

“And your first reaction was to, what?” she asked, leaning back in her chair

“To say no, of course,” I replied,her actions

“But you said yes Why?”

“Because…that’s what they all wanted me to say”

“Is that the only reason?” she pressed

I stood and walked over to theMy fingers gingerly ran over aveI’d enjoyed it, but I was also scared However, I wasn’t sure if I was scared of his he’d stirred up

“He kissedHe just did it”

“And how did that make you feel?”

“Scared, nervous, excited, confused, angry Take your pick” I returned to my seat, and buriedatme to be happy about this, so I caved People-pleaser to h

Dr Carr leaned forward and rested her elbows on her knee “Calida, I believe in lettingof therapy based on their needs You tell uide to help you overcooals But…I can only help you if you want to be helped”

I frowned in her direction “Of course I want to be helped I wouldn’t keep co you two-hundred an hour if I didn’t”

“Okay Well, I know the relationship you had with Seth was abusive, both et the distinct feeling that although you’ve toldAnd whatever you’re holding back is what is also keeping you fro in a relationship Whether it’s with Malcolm or anyone”

Dr Carr sat back in her chair and gaveto know more about my relationship with Seth What I’d told her was sufficient I’d had two serious relationships with h to support ain, but she didn’t see it that way No one saw it that way I was in the ht was best for me Intimacy, sex, both of those ca I wanted to avoid However, I couldn’t tell Dr Carr that, because she’d want to knohy, and some demons I’d rather not talk about

I rose fro me in last minute”