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I gasped as the water coveredIt was like there was no roo but the pain I felt for Belle

Belle

Even her name made my stoined her beautiful smile and the way the arch of her nose scrunched up when she didn’t like soht about how happy she had h I was important She loved me unconditionally and she trusted me with every bone in her body And I broke that

I lowered ulfwould it take for my spirit to leave ? In the seconds before she sla to die?

Were her final thoughts about me? About how much she loved me, or about how much I had hurt her?

A sob escaped froush into hed, and instinctively rose above the water, to breathe in the fresh air

I could just iine my father’s words if he could see me now I couldn’t even kill myself properly, that’s how much of a failure I was An embarrassment to the family I was useless Not even my own mother wanted me

‘I can’t handle being your mother’

What kind of mother says that? What the fuck did I ever do to her but love her? How she could just pack up and leave, just like that, I couldn’t comprehend If my own mother despised me that much, what hope did I ever have? I was fucked fronant with me, she never would have married my father He never would have broken her spirit I remember my mother as a soft-spoken wo and free like Belle, before ?

“Jack”

The voice was so soft, and at first I thought I ined it I looked back to the shore I saw hi out at me From where I was, I couldn’t read his expression I didn’t need his pity He didn’t understand, he couldn’t, not without knowing the full story, and I couldn’t tell hi me

“Fuck off, Luke Just leave me alone,” I called out He didn’t , as if he knew eventually I’d have to come back in

“Jack Get out of the water Don’t do this to yourself,” he called to me

“You don’t get it, Luke Please, just go I don’t want you here,” I said desperately My body was shaking, slowly giving in to the freezing temperature of the water

“If you don’t co to coround to show me he was serious I didn’t doubt for a second that he would if he thought that was the only way he could get me out of the water