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“Maybe” Even if I don’t want to seeer, I hope he does He’s a senior and the quarterback And with s that I didn’t have to worry about before now seem so important

“God,” Tori says with a sigh “You’ll be so lucky He’s so hot”

I totally agree He’s got this smile that eous”

Tori changes the channel on the radio, searching for a better song “Paul is not Jimmy, but he’ll do”

Her smile is sweet and I know she really likes him Yes, he’s a bit nerdy with all his Star Wars talk, but he’s a good guy And he’s practically perfect for Tori, because although she won’t adeeky stuff, too

“And what about you?” I ask Vicky, glancing at her in the rearviewfinally ask?”

“Yeah” Vicky s “He was totally aard about it all and looked ready to puke on his shoes It was kinda cute, actually” She suddenly bounces on her seat “Oh, oh, I love that song Turn it up”

Withsummer dance, put on by one of the rich students who has a lake house, and the butterflies in my stomach, I look away to crank up the volulance back to the road, blinded for a moment by the sun

Then, “Watch out!”

“I swear I can still hear the screa out of theht years since the accident”

“Is that all you remember?” he asks, and I realize now he’s moved closer to me

I inhale the woodsy hints of his cologne and so “I don’t remember what happened before I don’t remember the crash But I remember that I killed et”

“Jesus, Hadley,” he says softly

I shutit in the place inagain do I reopen my eyes and add, “It took years of therapy to realize the car accident wasn’ta little disconnected like I always did Sometimes… about someone else’s life “But I don’t think I’ll ever not remember that if I hadn’t looked away to turn up the stupid radio, I would’ve seen the truck that blew through the stop sign If the music hadn’t been so loud I would’ve heard the truck’s horn blaring That if the truck had hit my side of the car, I would’ve been the one to die, not my best friends”

Ryder’s jaw ain “Why didn’t I know about the accident?”