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The kiss is soft and lazy, and stops as soon as it starts I pull in a shaky breath and relax ainst the headboard and locks his fingers around my lower back My hands rest on his pecs

“Now, tell me more Do you knohy you have this addiction?”

Instead of answering his question, I ask one of my own “You’re not repulsed by this? How can you sit there and act like this isn’t a big deal?”

His handsthe feeling He gathers my hair in one of his hands and tips my head back

“You’re right This is a big deal, a very big deal,” he says “But can you control it?” I shake my head “That’s why I’ht now instead ofback”

I look deep into his eyes and see nothing but curiosity, and some other emotion I can’t name I have no idea how

to react to his reaction

“Answer my question Do you knohy you have this addiction?”

I don’t like this question It brings up painfulon his sto back the cuticles with my nails His hands takeme to stop

I’ether and face hiirl panties and put my hard interior back in place I’n to me, and I don’t like it

Straightening my spine, I look back at him

“There’s still a lot of unknown factors about sexual addictions Some doctors say it’s all in our heads, some say it’s an imbalance of the brain chemicals dopamine and serotonin, while others say it stems from some form of sexual abuse”

I stop talking and look over Blue’s shoulder at the headboard My body is back to being tense I hate talking about this It always puts me in a shitty mood I’ve seen soin et over it If they only kne hard I’ve struggled, how hard I’ve tried to push past it, how ly I used to seeI can siet over

“And what do you think it is?” My eyes go back to him with his question “Out of those three, which one do you think it is?”

Reaching over, I grab the sheet and tuck it under ainst hi the sheet around me makes me feel better I can’t do this so exposed