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Words that Trey said in that little roo s and truths and how a lonely gay boy ht best friend

And how I feel about uy

Words I’ve said and meant—more so than maybe I realized

The desperate thu of my heart

As desperate as Bobby’s right now

Itinstant, I feel absolutely sure

“Bobby …” I try again, my lips near his ear

“Don’t,” he begs

“You’ve felt like this for a while, huh”

“Please Please just … don’t”

“I should’ve seen it”

“Just let me be Just let me—”

“You’re the most important person in my life You’ve always been number one, Bobby” I kiss the top of his head “I should’ve known that you …” I kiss his forehead, squeezing his—”

“S-Stop talking” He’s sputtering His throat is closing up Is he trying not to cry? Is he even listening to what I’? “I don’t want to talk about it, Jimmy It was stupid to look for a boyfriend I don’t have it inI can’t do it I just can’t”

“Maybe you don’t have to”

My aret a look at“What do you mean …?”

That wild heart offrantically I have never been more terrified to say a few sio lookin’ for a boyfriend, Bobby … because there ht in front of you”

Bobby’s stare hardens He is utterly lost

So I find hiain—but this tiiven a kiss before—and breaking that stupid fucking deal of ours for good

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BOBBY

Lightning courses down ertips and back to ain

Ji me

What did he just say?

What were all those words he just said?

I bring ainst ainst each other’s faces