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I sigh “Those things aren’t the issue, for me I just feel like…I’m not the same Josh I feel like if you remembered me—” Just say it, Josh Damn “I feel like if you did remember me, you would be really disappointed now”

Ezra looks shocked “Why?” Then his face falls—so dra

“Not like that,” I tell him quickly “Not for that reason” I’ll tell him about Dom Bryant at some point soon, but I don’t count him as a hookup I was drunk off my damned ass, and I still called it off because of Ezra

“Because I didn’t handle it hen you left,” I force myself to confess “I did so much dumb shit And all that time, you had real problems I was so stuck in my own head, I almost fucked this second chance up”

I can see the wheels in his head turning as I stop at the last red light before my street Finally he says, “You can tell me, Josh I did some pretty bad shit, too Stuff I’m not proud of You tell me your stuff, and I’ll tell you mine It can be like a confessional”

I can’t help a snicker at that “Hell yeah, it can be”

He grins “You’re the worst”

“I’m only second worst You’re most definitely the worst Re dick on the roof?”

I shoot hihs at that “C’mon, Miller I’m not a hundred percent sure where we are, but I think we’re near your apartment Why don’t we both spit it out Tell me your fuck ups, and I’ll tell you mine We can offer up the context later”

Another deep breath in, and puff my cheeks out…blow it out “You sure?”

“Hitstoic “I can take it” Ez lifts his brows, and I know it’s a cue for onna say it,” I tell hiot high and drunk and ran ave up a soccer scholarship to Montevallo because their teaot here, started drinking every day and taking Xanax soht the fake stuff you saw in ht I took too much different shit, and whensick, and couldn’t stop, and passed out Jenna was scared that I was dying, so she called an a all that shit, I just cut back Tonight I felt…feelings” I roll my eyes at myself, and then s so my voice won’t break I whisper, “I felt lots of shit All for you So I went for the Xanax”

It’s a long second before I can bring h he doesn’t re as fuck for him to kno much I fell apart