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“I would have come,” Josh says

Our eyes meet for half a second, and I try hard to smile

“I wanted it to be over,” Imy face “You know…just be done But one day, they took me to a clinic bed, and there were doctors Real ones, and real nurses” I inhale, and he rubs ood that I just want to hold hio on

“I got put to sleep and woke up with a feeding tube in my nose A lot of tubes Paul cao home He came in there every day and fucked with me” His hand rubs h or in the early days, I was too weak to hold the fork” Josh shifts, and now he’s holding

“He got off on that shit, and I knew it So when he shocked me, I would act like it didn’t hurt I called hih, the sound soft and choked

“He was gay, Miller, I’ainst his chest, and although it makes me kind of nervous, I like it I try to keep my voice steady and clear

“I think he was an aluram, and that his parents started it” I shut ht of his ar tube out All the IVs out, and Paul—he knewRiley; I let his her in, and he says we can both leave if I’ll fuck her, right? Both her and hter, like he knows this part is one of the worst for me to think about

“And you would think Ito, after all She wasn’t resisting Even if she had…”

I draw htly around me

“Anyway” My voice is rough as fuck “I didn’t do it Paul sent everybody out I was still weak, and…Paul Tasered me and turned e to keep fro me down

“I’ve got you, angel” His cheek’s pressed against the top ofthathim this