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The drugs had taken over

It was like I was there, but I wasn’t My body was in the rooot onto reach for el as the devil clawed at my feet Each movement made my sore muscles ache in ways I had never experienced before

“Daisy…” Iso distant

I knew she couldn’t hear me over her sobs of despair I watched the scene fro an out of body experience Her sobs would forever haunt me I would remember her like this, always A curled up, broken wo for someone to heal her

“Baby…” I whispered against her tear-stained face

Her cheek felt so warainst my cold skin

“I’ all over her face, soaking up her tears that were still falling froirl? Hmm… where’s my Daisy?” I whispered close to her ear so she could hear my sincerity

She shook her head, closing her eyes, leaning away from me At least that time she didn’t push me away

“I’m sorry… I love you… please… baby… I love you…”

I sensed her resolve breaking Her body betraying her like I had by giving into my embrace

“I would never intentionally hurt you,” I reassured her, pulling her a little closer, feeling her warainst my clammy exterior

“I love you, Daisy I love youYou know that We’re best friends, remember?”

She winced still keeping her eyes shut I pulled her hair back away fro thumbs

“You’re so fucking beautiful I’m so lucky to have you, baby You’re all I ever wanted All I ever needed I’ sorry… you knoould die before hurting you You know that You’re my whole world”

I shutinmy forehead on her shoulder for support I turnedsoft kisses down her neck

“Please… please… baby… I fucking love you…”

I kissed all along her cheeks again, savoring the feel of her against e to tear the box out of her hands My eye’s fixated on it

“Why do you keep doing this to ainst my lips when I reached hers

“Shhh… Shhh…”

I wrappedher to seek the comfort she needed in my arms Return the love that I always received from hers I knew that I didn’t deserve it, but I was a selfish son of a bitch, I needed it I held her shattering body inpiece by piece Every last part of her slipped through htest movements

“Oh fuck… Daisy” I groaned out in pure agony fro

Her swollen eyes suddenly opened, looking ateach other in As she reached up to wrap her arrasp to the hard wood floor between us The slowht

The ache won

Betraying both of us

I grabbed the box, and stood,on its own accord Her arms slipped away from my neck, and I instantly missed her warmth

Her love

My Daisy

Mynot to leave her there, broken Struggling to not use again Fighting forwhat I just did to her

It wasn’t enough It never was I walked to the door without a second glance

And left

Chapter 36

Briggs

“Rock bottom”

Tords I’d heard s Every last addict repeating those tords, I never realized that I could have one too, not until that day I thought after finding the drugs in the roo to the realization that he’d lied to me for the first time in over a year and a half, was my rock bottom

Except it wasn’t

He’d never chosen drugs over me

I always came first

NoHis deles, his addiction were always secondary Our love was number one, primary in all aspects of our fucked up lives

I lost

That was my rock bottom, and I couldn’t do it anymore

I don’t kno long I sat there stunned by the turn of events Crying my eyes out for what felt like theof the front door jerked hts There wasn’t an emotion left in my body for me to feel

I raged with fury

A decade of solitude and years spent void of any emotion No love, an endless stream of hurt, pain, and emptiness always in my shadows The barricade that surroundedtime bomb that waited, had now exploded

It was loud, disastrous, and chaotic

It was going to take everything aroundaround in circles No one stood a chance, especially ht would be possible, emotions that one should never have to experience

I felt every loss of breath It cluttered h I couldn’t keep up with the agony that grasped onto round where there was no one, but… me

Alone

Forever destined to be alone

Life was cruel like that

I hated him…

I hated myself

I crept up off the floor,My reflection in the mirror made me sick

My misery

My hand caughtain

Getting rid of the toxic poison inside of me Our love

I spit out the rest of it, wiping my lips with the back of my hand I rinsed my mouth out ater and fervently shookto block out the last several hours of my life

His lies

His touch

My memories

Austin

They were forever seared inthat I would never be able to detach e, the wrath I no longer had any control over It pounded into o I walked out of the bathroo how h When he was fucked up, fuckingThat he loved irl

His Daisy

I took one last look around the roorabbedeverything I could fro everywhere I stepped, leaving a path of destruction in its wake I packed everything I could find not caring what it was My eyes blurred with tears every ti My body twisted with the desire to fall apart To cruht then and there

“I fucking hate you! I fucking hate you soto myself

I repeated it over and over again to let it sink intoit to become a part of me To fuel rabbed a few things fro et et the hell out of there before he got back I didn’t want to hear his lies His excuses His manipulations

Lur

ing me into his spider web of deceit

I packed enough things to getwhere the fuck I was going Just knowing that I needed to get out of there I zipped the suitcase and grabbed it off the bed, dashing out of the bedroo but love and devotion