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All sorts of weird things happen insideto co like I’ve had aatto my eyes After almost a month I should have a better handle on my emotions, but I don’t
He looks exhausted but gorgeous, as usual, even with the full beard he’s currently rocking Especially with that da
I squeak when he raps on the door again and clamp a hand over my mouth
“Violet?” His forehead coainst the door so I’h “I know you’re in there I saw your 4Runner in the parking lot and I heard you make a noise”
Hands pressed against the steel panel separating us, I say nothing Even though I hate hi hurts so bad I just want it to stop I wish he hadn’t done this to us; I want him to leave, but I want hiet up here
I have to bury my face in the crook of my elbow and bite my hoodie to stifle my pathetic sob
“I know I fucked up, Violet I just want to talk to you Please, baby? I miss you I s out I wanna work things out”
I take two or three deep breaths and clench my fists so I don’t reach for the doorknob I want to talk to him I want Alex to have a reason for what he did to us But whatever it is, it can’t be good enough There’s no justification for that kind of humiliation
Knowing this doesn’t prevent the ache inuntil it reaches yeast infection levels of discomfort
“Baby, open the door You don’t have to let me in I’ll stay here in the hall You can even leave the chain lock on I only want to see you” He pauses and waits a few endless seconds His head thu sucks without you I was under a lot of pressure I didn’t mean what I said—”
“Then why did you say it?” I scream and then cover my mouth with my palm, horrified I’m too weak to maintain my silence I put my eye back to the peephole in time to see him lift his head and brace his hands on either side
“Because I’m an idiot Please, Violet Don’t make me talk to you like this Give me a chance to explain”
“Why bother? Everything you say is bullshit anyway”
He stares directly into the peephole as if he knows I’ly perfect face “You know that’s not true People e mistake, and I wish I could take it back, but I can’t I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you”