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Chapter 25

Nell’s To-Do List

• Stopto-do lists They suck A lot

Between the ti after his concussion and his return later that eveningbefore everything fell apart, I’d added so to h I hate his every doubt and insecurity roaring to life in my headthat dauess I can finally adh it is

23 Fall in love

Been there, done that, wish I had never written a single word of this stupid list But I’m committed to it now, so I add yet another item

24 Get my heart broken

Then I cross thelad I have that now

I knew this whole experio bad There’s no way it couldn’t, not with me at the helm God, I should have realized this sooner I should have known that he and I wouldn’t fit together under normal circumstances The only reason he ever looked twice at me was because of her

There are still items on my list that I haven’t completed, but I feel like I’ve done my part I’ve stepped outside of my comfort zone I’ve taken risks And I’ve paid for it

And I was right all along

I’raduate early I’ve narrowed downout those applicationssoon Anytis I always planned to do, and I’ to look back

That’s the first lie I tell er worried aboutto work out

That’s the second

The next day, I lie when I tell Dylan (and ed my mind That Torres and I, while attracted to each other, just aren’t compatible

I lie when she asks if I want to eat ice cream and watch chick flicks, and say instead that I need to work on grad school applications Then, when she’s gone, I break out my sweatpants and the ice cream and settle down on the couch to watch a special on the Discovery Channel about lions hunting their prey (Okayso I wasn’t lying about the chick flicks, but all the rest of it)

It’s a lie each tio to bed and promise I won’t think of him