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When I was out I stared in disbelief at ht My face was puffy and blotchy, my eyes were bloodshot, the corners of my mouth were turned down and no et it to reachwas up Even make-up hadn’t really done ullible as Kelsey was and I could play it off as being sad to leave the but pretending she had dust in her eye and that her allergies were playing up My dad atching ullibility must run in my family because they didn’t push my car-crash of a face issue too far once I told the on each mouthful because my stomach was tied in knots

After breakfast I looked at the clock It was only just before ten - had it really only been a couple of hours since he called? It felt like an age had passed that I was alone in my misery I didn’t need to leave for the airport until twelve thirty so I still had a couple of hours to kill I couldn’t sit around here though; it was driving me insane because each ain, I really needed to see him He hadn’t calledhi if he’d even listened to it was killing o to his place and pray that he was there and not with the girl that he clai onto the hope that he was uess I’d see for myself when I went to his place

Itheoodbye to before I left, and thenthe whole time, I was pretty lucky not to wreck on the way there because

By the tiain I trudged up to his aparts and an even heavier heart I wasn’t even sure if I was strong enough to look at hiht to my face that it was over I didn’t want to see his beautiful face when he crushed me beyond repair But I knew I had to do this and try and convince hiive up on us I raised my hand and knocked a couple of tiht noould be crossing the line soainst the wood and closed irl?

My hand fu the one for his apartiven it tohere a lot, I was pretty sure he wouldn’t appreciatethe key into the lock and pushing open his door

I couldn’t breathe as I stepped through the threshold Everything looked exactly the salanced towards the sofa, sing ht about the intiht I would remeainst ether as he ht, so tender and intimate, and now as I stood here alone, the aze away from the sofa and let my eyes roam his apartlanced around quickly, looking for signs of life Maybe he was passed out in his bed or soht I silently prayed that he was, instead of where the nagging feeling told me that he was I crept towards his bedroom and peeked in My hope faded when I saw that his bed was empty, stillto see for irl, but now that I knew he didn’t spend the night here, I wished I didn’t know at all

Pain made my whole body feel weak as I started to accept the fact that he’d cheated The funny thing is though that it didn’t make me love him any less, I still wanted to be with hiirls like me when I watched them on TV or read about this kind of situation in a book I’d always shook my head and wondered how they could be so weak to let a man treat them that way yet still co ‘love conquers all’ made perfect sense to ust as I stepped into his roo over his suitcase that was propped next to the door His hoodie was tossed on the foot of his bed so I stooped and picked it up, pressing it to ful’s of his delicious smell A little moan left my lips because of how it made my insides tremble just by the smell of hi like a stalker, Ellie," Ithe hoodie back onto the bed

"And now you’re talking to yourself, really, get a grip wo into his kitchen to find what I was looking for When I had the pen and paper, I scribbled hio for a couple of weeks Please?

I love you and I’m sorry Please can we start over?

Ellie xxx

I frowned as I looked down at the paper, there were so s that I wanted to say to him, so many unspoken words that I didn’t kno to phrase properly Hopefully he’d give me the chance to say them later on I scribbled an extra kiss on the end before I headed back to his bedroom and balanced the note on top of his case so that he’d see it and hopefully grab his case and run out the door I sighed deeply, praying it would happen just like that I refused to fully accept this was over