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Sent: 9:23 am, May 3
I never said “I love you” to Dustin Actually, I don’t think I’ve ever said it to anyone except you, andback, I realize I probably should have said it to Elly every day For sohost, and who never figured out how to say the right words—she’s pretty a You should meet her sometime
Love,
Mills
From: Millie M
Sent: 11:59 a today and I so badly wanted to tell every man in there to shut the hell up for fifteen minutes and let the TWO WOMEN OUT OF THE SIXTEEN FACULTY speak
I wish that I’d had lunch with you afterwards, but I’m sure you’re relieved you didn’t have to listen to me rail about the patriarchy for an hour over a shitty Cobb salad (It’s Friday, and Friday always feel like Reid days—Mondays/Wednesdays too—but ays seehts happen It’s probably why I’, Dustin said so too asinine for me to let slide, and I just blew up at hiested that I was bringing our past into the faculty hed for like ten solid ether I reo, that I’h it’s most likely unreciprocated), and that my frustration was primarily about his inability to hire wo Dustin, he focused on the thing I’d said about you
So, apologies in advance if it’s aard the next time you see him on campus
Love,
Mills
From: Millie M
Sent: 4:34 pm, May 5
I watched Rudy today and fuck that e football but was still crying like a baby at the end Then I ate that pint of Cherry Garcia I found in o, and felt gross Why do you like that stuff? Chunky Monkey 4 lyfe
Love,
Mills
From: Millie M
Sent: 11:11 am, May 6
It’s 11:11, Reid Make a wish
I miss you
Mills
Frood, Reid, I’ but today was probably the most uneventful day on record I worked all day, went to Cajé about seventeen ti off at ot measured for all new bras Turns out I’m a 34C, and I don’t knohy that ht I was a B cup and I’loat to someone, but Elly and I don’t really have that relationship and turns out, I don’t have that relationship with anyone else who has boobs! So, working on that But for now, I’er than yours! And they’re in a nice, new, silky red bra
Love,
Millie
Froht I’ve been working on the book, and it’s going really well, but I ht? Last night was one of those where I just lay in bed, thinking over every shitty thing I’ve done, and feeling terrible I’ you I wish I’d been strong enough to do the right thing fro, but I wasn’t I feel like such a cliché even saying this, but the reason I lied wasn’t at all about you or anything you did The secrecy was aboutit was to be so open with you in a way that felt safe Unfortunately, that safety came from the fact that you weren’t aware it was ood for me, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t want you anyway
I’ve seen so many movies where one person in a couple says, “I was fine before you ca!” and is that supposed to ain, but don’t want to be fine alone?