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Fuck, that’s better

This is all I need in life--cigarettes and alcohol Wasn’t it Oasis who sang that song? They had it right I don’t need anything else but these two things in ht now

Fuck Ava And her lies and deceit

I don’t need her I never did

And fuck the rest of the world, too

I don’t need anyone

Everything I need, I’ve got right here

Ava

It’s earlybecause the sun is up

Miley is on the TV, swinging on a wrecking ball and singing her little broken heart out

I feel your pain, Miley I really do

Men are assholes

Maybe I should get a wrecking ball to swing around on It uess, I haven’t slept all night My eyes are swollen and puffy, and I’ and then feeling angry and confused to eating ht in chocolate to make myself feel better I’ht now, and this song is not doing anything to help my mood

But I don’t turn it off Clearly, I’m in the mood to torture myself

I look over at the box of chocolates

Eo over to the mini bar There are bars of chocolate in it But the prices are astronomical, and I can’t afford to waste ht want it

"Looks like another trip to the store," I say to Gucci

She’s asleep on the bed I’m pretty sure she didn’t even hear me

I put my hair up into a messy bun I pull on my hoodie and push my feet intomy Little Mermaid paja out in theht now And, honestly, I don’t give a crap what people will think

I can just be the crazy lady in her pajaet my wallet and room key when someone knocks on the hotel door

Gabe

Don’t be stupid Ava He doesn’t knohere you are right now And he hates you

I go over to the door and open it without checking the peephole to see who it is, and I find Charly standing there

"Nice pajamas"

I open my mouth to speak, and I burst into tears

"Oh, hell"

She wraps her arht, and I sob into her shoulder

"It’s going to be okay" She soothesaway, I wipe my face with the sleeve of my hoodie

"Don’t be" She closes the door behind herself and drops her bag to the floor She takes her jacket off and tosses it on top of her bag

"I know, but you’ve just gotten here You don’t needon your shoulder"

"Baay" She lifts her shoulder in offering, forcing a smile from me "That’s why I’m here So, you can cry, scream, and do whatever you need to, todown on the edge of the bed

Gucci gets up, wanders over to lad you’re here"

"Me, too" She tosses her cell on the bed and comes to sit by me "This Gucci?" She reaches out and strokes her

"Yeah" I smile

"She’s super cute Aren’t you, Gucci?"

Charly scratches behind her ears, and Gucci, the attention whore, climbs off my lap and onto Charly’s lap where Charly continues to lavish attention on her

"Have you slept at all?" she asks me