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Well, he kno

The whole world knows

My cell starts to ring again

A nunize

"Fuck off!" I yell at my phone, like the person on the other end can hear ht call

Pathetic, right?

She’s betrayed me Fed me to the sharks in return for a cash bonus And I won’t turn my phone off in case she calls

Not that I would answer I just want to have the satisfaction of knowing that she called

She sold you out, you pathetic piece of shit

I laugh out loud The sound echoes aroundme that I’m alone

And alone is how I should be It’s how I should have always been I should never have gotten involved with her

I can’t believe how fucking stupid I was I told her everything Spilled uts out like a little bitch When what I should have done is gotten rid of her I should have tossed her out on her ass the second I fucked her

Needing a sarette pack off the floor, but the box is empty

"For fuck’s sake" I cru o in search of soo into the kitchen and stop dead, hit with a barrage of

I can aletables for that fucking goat And that ti pizza, and I ers inside her--

"Fuck!" I roar

I shove everything off the counter withanything I can getinto the wall The pan sitting on the stove goes flying across the rooainst the wall until only pieces of wood are left in rip my head in my hands and slide down the wall to the floor as I start to cry

I’ that I can’t rehate her

And I love her

I want her

I didn’t knoas possible to feel such strong conflicting emotions for one person, but Ava’s shown me that I can

The first and only wouts me like this

Why did she do this to ht it hurt whenTate and me alone But this feels so ainst me

And for what?

Money

Fuck, if that was all she wanted, I would have given it to her

I would have given her anything

Done anything for her

But it’s all just so fucked up Because she’s never been about money She’s never seemed to care about it

So, why sell me out for cash?

It just doesn’t make sense

But then maybe I didn’t know her at all Clearly, I didn’t

And it’s not like I’e of character I didn’t knowpsychos, and I’d known the stupidity,hurts so much

I loved her

I love her

It hurts too

I rub et to o to the freezer and get the bottle of vodka fro drink The liquor calarette pack fro rooo over toFall Out Boy’s "Sugar, We’re Goin’ Down" starts to puet a cigarette out, put it betweenpull of s drink, letting the sh my nose