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Alh we did not h to touch I couldn’t stand any contact while I gasped out the sordid details, the painful losses, and he, I thought, didn’t have the courage to seek to co into thebeside his front door, e picked ourselves up, and made it to the kitchen table We sat, not close, not touching, not looking

"Please," he finally spoke, after I’d fallen silent, and been silent, for a very long ti we planned for All the things we talked about before I e, babies, forever With you"

I looked at my hands I couldn’t look at him Not for this No part ofit froo a step further, e could never have what he was talking about

I took the deepest breath "I can’t have children I’htest shift in his expression as his head tilted up and his brows drew together "How can you say that? You got pregnant twice"

I sed, not knowing how to broach this part I knew I’d make a mess of it either way, so I just told him all of it "I told you that I lost the second baby in the accident I haven’t explained just how

Right before i to…touch me I had a fraave you back that night?" His voice was choked, as though he couldn’t quite believe it

"Yes That one I had the picture inuphi I had no tirunt of a noise, and one stolen glance showedwith silent sobs

I hadn’t been even close to crying I’d been feeling pretty nu facts for hi tear fall fro up

I took a few longhim feel bad I had only meant to tell him what he needed to know This was

"The collision s, my knee, but that was actually just one of the injuries The ilass, and several of the pieces stabbed deep into asped in a harsh breath so violently that I found h I couldn’t suck air intowith e that the doctors knew right away that I could never get pregnant again It is not just unlikely forbadly They were forced to perform a hysterectomy"

This little reunion had been a hopeless fantasy fro now Brokenly I’d never seen a grown h the world were ending, and there was no earthly reason to hold back the despair He hadn’t even been like this for Jared, and we had both done our share of crying for his dear brother

"It was a long tio, Tristan, and it was nobody’s fault It was a tragic string of events that no one could have seen coh for that night Please stop blao" I was sobbing by the end, right along with him

He was inconsolable I tried to talk at first, ood, valid points to him between my own sobs, but he seeh he’d never cried before, the dam had broken, and he would never stop

Finally, back bent, body slu for me to do, because I knew that at the end of this, I’d be saying goodbye to hi myself comfort and take comfort fro to try to hold onto hiuilt

I knew more than anyone how much he wanted children

As o I was capable of that much, at least

I touched his head softly as I finally reached hirateful as the ones he wrapped around me His face burrowed into , over and over, between those raful, gasping, wrenching, sobs "I’m so sorry I’m so sorry I’ freely down ain "Things worked out how they were supposed to work out"

He shook his head, his face in my belly "No No No This is not how things were supposed to work out I wanted that baby Our baby Our babies" He sobbed brokenly for torturous minutes, before he continued "I wanted our fa sobreaths, wondering hoould do this, hoould be able to collect h to walk away