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I hope I have not changed anything for you I hope that I did not alter your life in any way If I did, please knoas not my intention I have done the best I can

I have tried to leave youryou would not wantI want is to scare you

I ain: This was not ivable

What do you remember? I am about to tell you the course of your day This is the last chance for you to have memories uninformed by this account

When I woke up, I was in shock In all of my years, I’ve never woken up in the body of someone I care so much about I wanted to respect your privacy asyesterday’s underwear, and inI had not seen already was exposed, I kept my eyes closed

I met your parents over breakfast, then drove to school Since I had been there before, it was not hard to navigate I don’t think anyone knew so I went to class and kept ood notes for you If you want details about classes, you can find them in your notebooks

I tried to avoid Justin I knew you would have wanted ested we go for pizza I couldn’t find a way out of it Nothing more than conversation happened He is annoyed with Stephanie and Steven for fighting

I did not see hi but I told him I had to pick up your mother from a doctor’s appointment Just in case he mentions it

(I realize it is strange that I keep saying "I" here--by "I," I of course s, it didn’t feel like you were doing the them I wonder if you will feel the same)

Because we had already been to an ocean and a forest together, I felt it would be best to head to a mountain I also wanted us to be alone…and ere very alone as we climbed (If you want to knohere ere, the search should still be on your phone I haven’t erased anything) It felt good to be solitary, to feel an exertion that was purely physical I wanted you to remember that, and to remember me there with you I don’t know if this is possible But--and I know this sounds strange--I felt like I was feeling it for both of us

Not wanting to get you in trouble, I made it back in time for a very cordial dinner with your parents Then I retreated to your room, attempted as much of your homework as possible, and decided to write you this note

I have no way to kno you will react to this, nor would I presu way to react Even if I haven’t caused any dae, I know this breach may still be irreparable I will understand if you never want to see or speak or write to ain But I will also hope desperately that you ant me to remain in your life I leave that up to you