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"I guess Dirk wants me," Charles/James says "I’ll see you when your book is done" Then he turns to the door and hollers, "COMING!"

Daren hasn’t put down the book

"You see, Rhiannon," he says after Charles has left "Nothing du the bathroo down both seat and cover), I return to the kitchen When I walk in, I find Kara’s disappeared and only Lindsay is with Justin now He looks drunk and she looks deter, she reaches out and puts her hand on his shoulder, then moves it down to his chest His reaction is so fast you could almost call it instinct--in one smooth move, he’s removed her hand and pushed her away There’s no way for her to save face, the rejection is so complete And the best part is I know he hasn’t seen

He did it because he’s true to me

I let a minute pass, and let Lindsay slither off Then I ht up to see me, but he doesn’t di The Outsiders upstairs

"I love that book!" Justin says

"Remember e read it?" I ask

He’s probably had tooabout Or at least that’s what I figure Then he calls out, "Heigh-ho, Silver!"

Not quite as roin But I’m happy he remembers

He steps away fro on," he says

I follow We find our friends, we shoot the shit, and I no longer feel like the hidden girl in the visible body Now I am Justin’s version of me--that’s who I aate the party It helps me knohat to do It helpsfor A I turn back to these people, because they’re ive in and write to A I’

A,

Just another weekend here Went to a party Talked to some people, but none of them were you Got in trouble with my , then saw a better ht (Warning: VAST is boring)

Where/who/how have you been?

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I hit send even though it doesn’t sound right, because I can’t iine how to make it sound better He doesn’t want to hear the details about Justin, and I don’t want to tell the it to hiiven him any reason to be interested

Which isI wake up and feel off At first I think it’s because I fell asleep in my clothes That doesn’t happen very often, so it’s weird to seeIt’s like I’ve woken up in an unfah this is my bed, in my room I expect to look at , to explain the disorientation But it’s the nor off

It must be because it’s Monday, I think

But then I correct o to hit off the alarm, I find a folded piece of paper on top of it Even before I open it, I have a vague idea it’s a letter I wrote But I don’t re, or explain anything, I want you to stop reading and try to re--but I know immediately that I didn’t write this