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But life is definitely different I’ory Over in Lake Havasu City And I have enough money that I don’t have to work, but to keep my mind busy and try to conforhts at a convenience store Mrs Gregory doesn’t like it It scares her She says it’s dangerous working in places like that which are open at all hours of the night

She happened to be right

I was robbed uy stood on the other side of the counter pointing that gun at lanced down at the ed to grapple it from his hand and then I hit him in the face with it It was stupid, really But it was instinct I’ women in convenience stores

That’s child’s play

But I’m definitely not some kind of reformed badass created by my extraordinary experiences, either Just ask the spider that crawled ona book in bed Mrs Gregory about had a heart attack I screamed so loud

I went to school to obtain o It wasn’t very hard for led with theCoh I don’t knohy I really have no interest in it out in the ‘real world’, but…well, nor out with oals It makes me feel like an awful person that I have to pretend these things at all, but I can’t forcejust because I should

But not everything is so unbearable I love Mrs Gregory and I spend most of ers are gnarled and she can’t play the piano much anymore, but she still teaches ers are craht Sonata And each tiht he sat withworse I take care of her, but I know she won’t be around forever and that one day I’ain I like to think thatoverthat he is But the reality is that I don’t even know if he’s still alive I try not to think about that, but it ends up being all that I ever think about except when I’m lost in the piano

I miss him I miss him so much Some people believe that when two people separate that over time they heal They start to find interest in other people They go on with their lives But that hasn’t been the case with me at all I feel a deeper void now than the one I felt when I lived at the compound This isabout Victor And I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t think about him sexually on a daily basis Because I do I think I’m addicted to him

It has been so hard for rand sche time Not compared to the nine years I was at the compound So, I’m hopeful that by the time another six months rolls around, I’ll be better I’ll be ‘norh I can’t tell them about my life--and I think that’s why I’ve had such a difficult tireat Dahlia is a year older than e job We are alike in the ways of average, but we couldn’t beelse Dahlia doesn’t juunshot I do Dahlia doesn’t look over her shoulder everywhere she goes I do Dahlia wants to get married and have a family I don’t Dahlia has never killed anyone I would do it again

But I’ soot away I’rateful’ is very different fro a normal life that a lot of people would love to have, I’ satisfied as I can be

Victor Faust did much more than help ed ed the landscape ofordinarily and free and on ed the colors on the palette from primary to rainbow--as dark as the colors of that rainbow oes by that I don’t think about hierous and ultimately short, it’s what I want Because it would’ve been a life that better suited me and, well, it would’ve been a life with Victor

I’ory says fro to come and eat?"

I blink back into reality

"Oh yeah, I’ll be there in a second I need to wash ht

I truly auess it’s safe to say that she’s the ory, or Dina, always cooks chili dogs on Friday nights We sit together at the kitchen table watching the HD television mounted on the wall in the kitchen The news is on It’s always on around this time