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It took a victirateful

I fucked up a et showedI hadn’t even noticed

The news spread, and my handlers booked me in for Lasik and other supposed miracle cures But it was no use The doctors said there wasn’t anything wrong withblind

I bashedaway the cold lecherous orders; ignoring the overriding urges I’d never be free of

Fuck

Fuck

Fuck

My es of Hazel on her knees while I droveher face into the carpet The sounds of her cries and pleas

I’m a bastard No, I’ood day I woke to a strong wave of conditioning The first of every month had been a special recap for operatives A day ere rotesqueness

I warned her!

I fucking warned her to keep her distance and yet she kept pushing and pushing and pushing

I spun around and sainst the pain lickingwild Out of control A rogue operative who should’ve taken the pill two years ago and ended his miserable life The scar onme back to then--to a place I never wanted to return

"Hold him down"

My twenty-one-year old heart tore itself into pieces as ed it I’d ha one of the best ainst me

"I obeyed I did what you said"

My handler paused besidedoith eyes devoid of eh, did you, Fox You think you can flaunt the rules You can’t You belong to us, and you kill whoever we say you will"

The two ht But it wasn’t any use

The sharp tip of the knife enteredto rest behind the soft smoothness of my cheek

"Every time you look in the ht the control"

His wrist flicked up and pain exploded in every crevice of aped in two

I hated hi kill hi the knife to the floor, he ordered, "Sew him up No morphine"

The bathroom swirled around me; phantom pain ached in h and foreign Infection after infection had turned a neat line of stitches into a tattered e they’d scarred ht patterns weren’t rammed rules and commands

Why did I ever think I stood a chance? I wished I could rewind time and never look at Zel I wanted to erase myself and all the pain I’d caused froe

How could you hurt her?

You’re so weak

You’ve lost her

You don’t deserve her

I sighed heavily, hanging ain--not after hurting her so fucking much Every ti that happened to her

It wasn’t fair I wouldn’t do it anyress she ht she stabbed ht’ve found in the greenhouse disintegrated I’d hoped she’d broken through and set me on the road to recovery¸ but it’d just been a moment One brittle moment that shattered the second it was over

She’d turned ift no one had before and all I did in return was revert back to a useless

I couldn’t ask any more of her I couldn’t expect her to stay Not now

Minutes ticked by I wanted to leave but I couldn’t risk returning to the bedroo a small ha, I searched for the seaain go into a rooes, I knew the value of having tays out It

The custom-made bench seat looked as if it was tiled and part of the shower, but with a few carefully placed taps of the ha the false seal

The escape hole only led to the next bedrooave h the sht and buckled as fro deep inside a woivethe door to the corridor, I checked to see if Zel was around before charging toward the opposite end of Obsidian

I wanted no chance of running into Zel Jogging down the stairs, I entered the section of the house I hadn’t shown her