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I tell hiood bread, to pay attention to what he does with his days, what he puts into his body, what feeds him

I tell him I love him, and my love means I want him to be happy, I want hio

When he, messy and wet, and he says, "Caroline God, Caroline Don’t"

"It’s okay," I say "It’s just the way it is"

His hands His hands are onoverhis forearrooves, ruffling his ar we had more time

I don’t think it’s fair that we don’t have ers catch on the leather bracelet at his wrist, the letters of his na it off The cuff falls to the floor, and when I reach to pick it up, our heads knock together, because he bent down to get it forhe would do for me if he could Onealive

"I need to keep it"

He smiles and says, "Okay"

He puts it on ht over s inside me, too, with his prayers on them I’ll carry him everywhere, for the rest of my days

"Take care of yourself," he says "Don’t let anybody get aith any bullshit"

"I won’t"

"Bridget and Quinn will look out for you And try to keep Krish fro, if you can"

Krishna

Krishna is a mess

He let West take the fall for hiht into a bar He hasn’t come back to the apartet seems to knohat he’s up to She’s talked to him a few times She’s worried about him, but none of us knohat to do

I can’t really concentrate on Krishna right now

"I’ll do my best"

My voice is full of tears My heart is so full of cuts, nicks--every second this goes on makes the blood flow ainst my neck, kisses me at the nook where neck beco to be fine Great Better than great You’ll get a whole lot er"

Co around like hosts, but I clamp my mouth shut and rest my hands on his body, just to feel his warmth and the way his back rises and falls with every breath The ridges of his spine

I don’t know if I’ll ever see hi to Even though I swore to le demand "Promise me you’ll be my friend Pro on with you Proht, if you’re alone, if you need soain, this ti to need a friend"

"Yeah"

"I want to be your friend, West"

He kisses the tip of my nose "You’re already my friend, Caroline Piasecki"

I just close o of the tail of his shirt "You should get in line"

"Yeah"