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Everybody’s got to believe in so I believe I’ll have another drink
A pre-translation note: A word comes up here that is basically i from Japanese folklore The word is “kodoku” (蟲毒), which was a method apparently used in 8th century Japan (and later) to curse people The general idea is to put eneral) into a pot, have theer, with the final one being the strongest and the one used for the curse In a eneral sense (and how it is often used in popular fiction), iht each other to the death in the hope of creating a particularly powerful winner
Past Reflections: Gyurie
Do I have regrets? I have an endless amount If only I had done this here, or that there Once I start thinking about theoes on forever Particularly in my case, as I had more choices No, maybe it would be better to say that I didn’t have any choices If I could have made a choice, surely the future would have been different When I think about that, s, I can’t change the past That being the case, there’s nothing I can do but to accept the choices I made It’s not to Dustin’s extent, but I must take responsibility for my past actions But well, precisely because of that, I’ve still not h
Whether it’s Dustin or myself, our past choices have bound us and even now they are narrowing our freedo to walk down the path he chose in the past No ht be, noAlso, considering that he has not gone off track from that path even once, he is dreadful In terht not be a god, but on that point he’s a od
My choices? I have not made choices I couldn’t make any choices Year in year out I take half-bakedNot being able to do anything I sit idly by, and even now I’ I can actually say that I acco D for mercy It’s so pathetic that I can’t stand it Even then, I’ing D for mercy was correct I can’t help think that there must have been another way
Even I realise that D didn’t help us out of good intentions Or rather, I didn’t realise that at the tian to think that she was suspicious, and I becaer able to contact her I realised rather too late, didn’t I
I don’t knohat D’s objectiveto her it was because it see, and I aht have other objectives apart from that One of them, is probably so called “kodoku” on Earth This is the same The Syste beings kill each other, in order to create even stronger beings The final target would be, to create a god Since the skills of the Seven Deadly Sins and Seven Virtues have “reaching the gods” in the explanatory note, that point is obvious The Systened to artificially create a god
As for what’s theso, I have no idea either Maybe it’s si for her Apart from that, I’ve spotted all sorts of specifications in the Systeht of as D’s playfulness I am not able to come up with a rational explanation for all of them I’m sure I wouldn’t understand theain, even if I asked about them maybe I still wouldn’t understand That’s just how she is Gaining understanding would actually be my loss
Yes, she was hard to understand I had absolutely no idea ould stir D’s heartstrings Even now I don’t know If I take arbitrary actions, Iso, I couldn’t do anything except to quietly do as I was told Even here I have abandoned the right to choose Or perhaps, considering D’s personality, if I could have just gotten her to think that it was interesting, reater freedom of action to a certain extent However, this isabout, okay? Do you seriously think that so is interesting? Although I’ so ht ruin everything, I lose the courage to take a single step forwards Because of that, even while D toyed with this planet, I couldn’t do anything and sih she toyed with this planet, it is still the truth that it was saved by her Considering the current situation, while Iwas correct or not back then, it’s certainly the case that I had no other way and that this was the best option Indeed, even if I could return back to that moment, I would likely still rely upon D Hmm, when I think that, at the end of the day maybe this is the only future I could have selected No matter how much I worry about this and that, it’s all too easy to pictureSo I accept being called a “loser”
Sigh Ahh, that’s right I’uess I have what’s called a washed-up nature I’m no different to the masses I’m simply an existence that obeys thewith the flow If there exists those who are called heroes or protagonists, who go against that floho enforce their oill, who change the way the world is, then when all’s said and done I would be called a minor character who adds soe the course of events, I still have power Therefore, I’m not even able to be a proper minor character, and instead I’e Any way you cut it I’ht be, ht not have made choices before, but that doesn’twith the flow, but I’ht be D’s errand runner, but unlike the System I wasn’t created by her I am here with my oill I want you to re here, h I still have plenty to drink Hang out with er, I still have some complaints