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"I do!"
Dani saw that she did Julia wrapped a hand around the anchor’s rope, and she pulled away from her sister They were both connected now Jake and Trenton held on to the rest of the anchor’s rope Each gave Dani a grim nod
Dani knew their destination, but she didn’t know if they’d make it or not "There’s a cave underneath this tree If I don’t o inside You keep swie Then you can swim upward, and you’ll feel the surface from inside the water" She looked to Trenton "He knows He can lead you in, if I can’t"
Julia gasped "Shut up Let’s go" Then she said, "Dani…" She trailed off, treading water
"I know" Dani stopped her "I know"
Julia nodded, settled, and Dani saw that her sister was ready
It wasn’t like the last tiht before she dropped the anchor It was ti to find out if death called her nu this letter, but I have no way of getting this to you, so it’s not even really for you Selfish, aren’t I? Well, tough I don’t knohere you are, but you’re right or I’ht now, but this is for me and my mental health Jake says I need to be ‘sound’ in the head if I have any way to fight this crap that I have What Jake doesn’t knoon’t hurt hiot to admit it
You knohat? I’, and you’re the one who took off? I bet you’re rich, ht?
Jake seems to think you’re dead Everyone else, too, but I just think it’s because Aunt Kathryn is spreading that rumor out of spite She thinks you’ve left her, and who could ever leave Aunt Kathryn? Obviously so my eyes)
She’s demented I know that, but she raised me And Julia needs her Jake’s scared to death of her That always h It’s really the only moments of amuseets whenever she shows her face It’s so funny how his hand will twitch He always denies it, but I saw that he sat on his hand today And his eyes look so strained Jake’s such a guy He won’t admit someone could terrify him like that Oh, and he has this little jerk at the corner of histhis letter for , but I’one on the death road that I don’t even care That’s kinda funny, too I can say senseless things like, ‘Oh, how the butterflies are so pretty’ And everyone will agree and pat eous And this is in the winter! I told one guy who I saw that he owned a cahed so hard when Jake told ot that cute perplexed look on his face, like he wants to tellsense, but he doesn’t want to hurt s I love that look I think that’s why I fell in love with him
But, yeah--that’s the other part of this letter
You took off after Jake broke up with you He broke up with you for ht
Jake didn’t break up with you I watched you guys Yes, you were best friends, and you were dating, but you weren’t any couple that I’ve ever seen
You left hi before he left you, Dani, and you know it You just put up a wall, and it’s a as he did He did that because he loves you Sometimes I just hate you I really do because it’s not fair how the man who I have fallen completely head over heels for still loves you I can’t touch whatever part you have in hiets this stubborn look and walks away to getWe’ve talked about you a lot, but we haven’t talked about you and hi to die pretty soon, and here’s uy I love with my whole heart still has a part of his for you I’m not okay with that, and if I were, I’d have to kill myself I am resolved to it or have reluctantly coot with hiirl he loved who died That’s major, and it’ll leave its scars I know that, and a part of , Dani, and I’ve known for a while No one else has I knew I had cancer before I was diagnosed, but no one will adirl It’ll be someone else Probably you or Julia or, I don’t know I care, but I don’t care
Anyway, on to randet told by soranduess his dad shacked up with Grand what dying will give you All sorts of people will show up at my bedside and talk all sorts of nonsense that they’d want me to know before I’m dead
Our uncle is pretty cool He’s come to visit ht-laced Not the sort to drink or smoke or have sex, but I’ht?