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I hesitate, pen in hand What can I possibly say?

And Paul is alive too He studies physics with Moh he and I were already close before I came to your dimension, this is where I realized howdown the words re beneath the redwoods, staring up at the canopy of green leaves so i his breath quicken as he pullsme a bouquet of pink roses on Valentine’s Day, which I should’ve thought was cheesy but instead reduced , totally overcoht before Thanksgiving

Talking about ht they always told the truth

Learning that he’d risked everything to protecthow much of e are is truly between him and me alone

As much as I loved Lieutenant Markov--what I feel for Paul is even ain inside raphs of iven me so much--more, even, than I took from you I don’t only need to atone for what I’ve done to your life; I also need to thank you for soreatest love I’ve ever felt, and even for giving that love back to me

I fold the letter and slip it into her sketch pad She’ll find it when the tiless for her, but surely she’ll take so out she’s not one bit crazy The shadoorlds, everything she went through in Dece that helps It’s the best I can do

I curl up in bed and turn out the light Even with all the eh to pass out withinweird inthat’s easy to forget

I feel it again, though, and this tioldfish is swi deep inside me--

--which is when I realize the truth, andsick, I send a note down to thethem to send a summons to Theodore Willem Beck No, it won’t be easy for therand duchess of all the Russias What’s the point of being royalty if you can’t make impossible demands once in a while?

Maybe not so impossible Either the hotel had Theo’s information on file after all or the Ritz Paris is extremely dedicated to customer service, because they soon reply that they’ll have him here by noon

That’s still a few hours away Maybe I have tirand duchess’s pastels and sketchbook She’d probably like to see what Mom would look like if she were still alive in this diroup requires some care; if anyone else ever sees this, it’s probably best if the late tsaritsa and the royal tutor aren’t in each other’s arms So I put us on the sofa--Mom and Dad on the ends,in Josie’s chin, there’s a rap on the door That htly surprised the hotel simply sent him up to the Suite Imperial "Come in!" I call, just as I re about news from a Cousin Karin--

But my visitor is soain, but this time it’s only frouerite!" He crosses the room and scoops me into his arms; his camel-colored overcoat is still cool from the outside air "Oh, look at you Are you well?"