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The safest place to hide, I decide as I sprint, is somewhere I know the soldiers have already been I double back on myself and head down the road which runs parallel with Calder Grove before cutting across a coupleMarsh Way This is the area where I saw the soldiers patrolling when I watched fro

The road is en of the military presence I saw here earlier I stand in the shadows under a tree at the end of the street and look up and down There&039;s no sign of any kind of presence at all Everything is co except me

I notice that the front door of one of the houses on the other side of the road has just opened slightly I run towards it and pushof rubbish down the hall, about to throw it out He looks up and I know immediately that he&039;s not like me I have to kill him

&039;Who the hell are you?&039; he starts to say I throwhi hi and in control but not knohere I&039; We trip into a filthy kitchen and I slaainst a wall cupboard His body rocks back with the iht th, speed and surprise on ht and sainst the cupboard door He&039;s still fighting I pull his head forward and sain Oncecrack - not sure if it&039;s the door or his skull Again and he stops fighting Again and he slu the body across the floor and leave it lying out of the way in the corner of the kitchen Then I close and lock the door and finally stop to catch my breath and plan my next move

I&039;ve never felt like this before Part of me still feels devastated and empty because of what&039;s happened to er and more alive than I ever have before The way I killed the owner of this house was so out of character and yet it felt right and it felt good I feel like I could take on a hundred thousand of them if I have to

I am a Hater

Sat here in one of the bedrooms of this untidy and squalid little house I&039;ve finally ed to fully accept that I a now but I can understand why it was originally given To those on the outside - those who haven&039;t felt what I&039; now - our actions could easily bedriven by hate But they&039;re not Everything I have done today has been in self-defence I have killed to preventkilled Those people, those &039;normal&039; people, are the ones who create the hate I can&039;t explain it I can see it in their eyes and I can almost taste it in the air around them It&039;s like a sixth sense, an instinct I sensed it co off Harry and that hy I killed him It was the same with the man downstairs and it&039;ll be the sa and I&039;ll keep killing for as long as I have to

And now I finally begin to see where this is going At last I&039; to understand why this whole crisis has seemed so endless and directionless frooing to be a drawn otiations to resolve this There won&039;t be an end to this fighting until one side has prevailed and the enemy lies dead at their feet

It&039;s kill or be killed

Hate or be hated

The light is beginning to fade and I&039;ain a little cover and protection from the darkness I take so worth salvaging) and am ready to head back out into the open

In the short time I&039;ve spent in this houseconstantly Half of me feels excited and alive because of what I have become Part ofas I can remember and I&039;m relieved to have finally walked away fro, detery and yet all of this counts for nothing in theabout the past Lizzie and I would have been together for ten years next year We&039;ve brought our children up together and, although we&039;ve had our one now and it hurts I may be a Hater, but I still feel pain I wish that Liz, Edward and Josh could have changed too I have to stop thinking about the to make sense of my emotions I still love them but at the same time I know that if I had to I&039;d kill theh the house so room, on a small round table next to a dirty, threadbare and obviously well-used arovernment-produced booklet It looks clean and new and yet it&039;s strangely faes I reh the door a few months back when there was soeneric, telling the public what action to take in the event of an eency It covers bo It tells people to stay in their homes and tune in to the radio or TV for updates It&039;s also got infor basic first aid, what supplies to ency contact details At the back are several pages full of propaganda and rubbish - how the country is prepared for all eventualities and how the e into action at the drop of a hat, that kind of garbage There are souide, and when I look at theiven to the owner of this house by the military after their visit / inspection / clean-up operation today The absence of any real facts is unsurprising and it immediately smells liketo read what they&039;re finally telling the rest of the population about people like es talk about what&039;s happened to us as being an illness It implies that this is some kind of infection or disease that causes a form of dementia but it skirts around the issue and doesn&039;t use such direct language or present any hard facts It says that a sest no more than one in a hundred people - are susceptible to &039;the condition&039; It talks about sy that people who are affected will become delirious and will, at rando idiots There&039;s nothing random or irrational about what I&039;ve done today

What bothers e The booklet explains how affected people are being rounded up and taken away and &039;treated&039; It doesn&039;t take a genius to work out that&039;s the reason for the trucks and the soldiers working their way through town So what does this so-called treatment involve? From what I&039;ve seen it&039;s limited to a bullet in the back of the head

I&039; my time I don&039;t want to read anythe street outside is empty, I leave the house and its dead owner behind I&039;ll makeEllis ho Superior to all of the people who haven&039;t changed I&039;lad that I&039;m the one in a hundred I&039;d rather be like this than like them