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The tears were pouring down usty sobs that were ready to blow

"Ellie, please!" Ada hard behindhis shouts for me to come back and talk to hi I was already racing across the street toward a bus that was about to pull off I got on it and the doors closed behind lanced absentoing as long as it took est mistake I’d ever made

There had been a few times in my teen years I’d cried myself to sleep A couple of those tier, like ative seemed like the complete and total end of the world Thankfully that flair for the drama usually disappears as you enter adulthood It did for ht, it ithout a sense of faux enuine It was raw

For a good eight hours I believed that not only had I been given 100 proof positive that Adam Sutherland didn’t love me the way that I loved him, I also believed that I’d ruined us and destroyed one of s in the whole world --my friendship with him

I barely slept and woke up early toflat alone and puffy- faced wearing mismatched socks onon the front doorand splashing ontocarefully on the table, scurrying out of the room and into the darkened hall

"Ellie, open up!" Adah the thick wood "Ellie!"

I wanted to talk to his and rewind the clock, but I knew if I let him inside the flat he’d take one look at my face and realize that I, Ellie Nichols Carmichael, was coht had devastated ainst the wall inon the cold hardwood floor I listened as Adam poundedin e on it I listened as he walked away… When I woke up I was curled up on the cold floor I blinked, trying to getback I didn’t have time to dwell on it, however, because I realized what had woken roan,position, and I ran intoto the clock on my phone I’d been asleep for just over two hours

My stoht of the picture of Adam on my phone I sucked in a deep breath and answered it

"Ellie, thank fuck," he breathed in relief and I could just i at his hair in anxiety "I caht so I was kind of dead to the world," I lied

"Els, I don’t even knohere to start I’m so sorry God, I’m so sorry"

"Adam--"

"I can’t lose you, Els I can’t believe I fucked up like this but you have to forgive me I can’t lose you"

When he said stuff like that it et over him But I knew from now on that I really needed to try And not just say that I was going to try I had to try I couldn’t liveafter him So I made my decision to do just that "Adaot carried away in theout on you I was just eh of relief and atte of tears out ofto be erew even quieter "We’re good We’re still us?"

"We’re still us," Iback tears