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I felt like ere friends Siblings no, but it felt like friends The texts have never been anythingMy hands are shaking How did I miss it?

"Did he punish you, sexually?"

My eyes betraywith that He was punishing you as E hihs and continues, "Not to mention how you feel about him He saved you You will never see the ive hiined that hat you were feeling Not true lust I honestly didn’t think you were capable of true lust This is progress for you, even if it’s twisted and bizarre Considering the dirty house and all" I’ to the elevator

"You need to stay away from him until I can help hiers tap the button in a disturbing panic My fingertip goes nuht the tears I run across the parking lot, away from the SUV Stuart doesn’t see me His head is down I run hard and fast My boots are killing my feet, but I run until I can’t Then I pull outon the sidewalk

"Yes" He is cold

"You think ofI’ about?"

"Doctor Bradley, she told me that you think of me as the sister who died You’ve replaced me in your heart as your sister and you loveand puffing and blowing steary circle

"You told Dr Bradley about us? What we did at my house?" His vice is still cold

"ANSWER ME, FOR FUCK’S SAKE! DID YOU FUCK ME AND THINK ABOUT YOUR SISTER?"

My ear is pressed into the phone but I know he’s gone He’s hung up onMy heart is broken in a thousand pieces I crouch onto the ground and sit on my heels

"Sarah?" I look up Stuart is pulled over on the side of the road I laugh I laugh hard and psychotically

He’s parked illegally and running across the street He grabs my arm and lifts h

He takes ripped hand and dials

"Meet s up

I laugh harder He’s called Eli Eli who has made me dirty and yet somehow broken my heart in it all

Stuart helps me across the street and into the SUV He drives fast He pulls up in front of the dorms Michelle is there She looks worried

Stuart opens the door for et out on my own "I’ers but he shakes his head, "I don’t know"

"They just keep fucking with rab Stuart’s coat, "Thank you for everything Don’t be offended if I don’t want a ride or to see you Please"

He shakes his head, "I get it"

Michelle puts a hand out forrass

My dorm is a haven It’s the only place I feel safe, with or without Shell I curl intome

"I’m fine" I say and turn on the Xbox

"You’re clearly not fine Spill" She sits in the way of the TV I stare past her I can’t let her see inside of me I can’t let her see what’s in there and what I have allowed to happen What sick fetish filth I have let overcohtly I know she can see me She is the only one

"He doesn’t love me" I whisper

"It’s more than that?"

"He really sees me as his sister"

She pauses and takes it in, "What do you mean?"

I can’t pull the words back I’ve let the thes she will see any second when she puts it altogether She will see irl I am But in the end I need someone Someone I can process it with

"Sarah, what do you mean?" She presses me

I keep my eyes covered and continue, "He wanted me to be his sister, like he sees me as her When he saved me it was like he saved her But when he punishedher I a

In ust I kneould be "Sick bastard," she whispers