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March 3rd

I wonder when it will show I quit cheerleading, just on general principles And when Ti out on fun But I don't feel right, dating, under the circuet up the nerve to tell my parents

March 5th

I stopped to see Dr Therrian He had called Terry He said Terry is sad, scared, and very iuess until he told et married But I don't think I wanted to

March 10th

I told Mory Then they said they loved h it

April 30th

One more month of school, and I still don't show I think I can ht clothes Dr Therrian says it's because I'et all bulky the way others do The baby is due in Septeo away for the suained nine pounds No one knows, except me, Mom and Daddy, Dr Therrian, and of course, Terry, but I haven't heard from him at all So of having a baby growing I can feel it move

June 10th

Thank God school is over I' I've decided to stay here for the su to tell everyone that I've gone back to Detroit for the su to stay here in the house It's private I can sunbathe and stuff, but I won't have to see people Doc Therrian says he'll coo to the hospital, of course, the secret will be blown The nurses there will probably tell someone But by then it won't really o back to school here I can go away and start all over

June 22nd

Doc Therrian says I'm very, very healthy, that I will have a fine baby It feels very strong It kicks against irl Funny, I can barely remember Terry at all He went out to Colorado to work, this suuess that's best

June 24th

I wonder if I get to nairl, I'll name it Juliet Sort of after me, but more romantic I don't know about a boy I'd kind of like to nah Or for Doc Therrian, who's been so greatbut Clarence? Double ugh Well, I'll just hope it's a girl Probably I won't get to choose the nae When my mother looks at me, she cries, so school for next year Miss Soust 1st

Good news! Doc Therrian says they've found a terrific family ants to adopt my baby! They won't tellset up with a lawyer, and Doc said that the parents are terrific people, according to the lawyer, and that they can't have a baby of their own

Later

When I wrote that, I thought it was good news Now, the more I think about it, the more I think I don't want anyone else to have my baby It is mine Maybe there's some way I could keep it We'd be just fifteen years apart It would be like having a brother or a sister

August 8th

It's weird, being here at the house all su Doc Therrian comes often He pretends it's a s his stethoscopebut mostly we just sit and talk We both read a lot, and we talk about books Or just anything He tells ine living in a place like this, all your life? And we talk about the baby He says it wouldn't be fair forabout the baby, just aboutI wonder if they've bought little clothes

August 29th

I feel strange I keep having pains, and then they turn out to be nothing

Septee feeling All the kids think I a school I can see, so down the hill on their bikes, heading for the high school in the o, she'd kill the their bikes Hah I don't think I'd be able to walk up that hill now if you paid me a million dollars

September 13th

I've had pains off and on all day Doc says this is probably it I' I made him promise That they'll let me see the baby, and hold it, before they take it away