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Julie's secrets, Natalie kneould be more painful, more private ones than her own had ever been But she sahen she flipped the pages that Julie'sa journal had been much like her own

October 10th (The printed January 1st crossed out in green ink, and carefully relettered with the correct date)

I hate it here There is nothing--NOTHING--to do, and everyone hates me anyway It's because of the socks In Detroit ore our socks up, and here they wear thehed when I came into homeroom the first day with my socks up Hoas I supposed to know? And I'm way behind in Geometry, too There's a cute boy in hohed loudest at ht, I think things will be okay Socks down (it feels so stupid, that way) Pony tails are out I have to wear ym suit under, and embroider your name on the back with that thread that turns into different colors So out for cheerleader And the house is really neat My roo plaid curtains for it

October 22nd

I made it! Cheerleader! I didn't think I would, because I was new, but no one else could do a back flip Margo and Anne invited o to the movies Friday

Noveet worse It snowed Thursday and there was no school Mom and I made cookies The house is so far up the hill and away from town that the other kids can't ever come over I washed my hair and put it in pin curls, but it looks awful, curly Margo has natural curls, and says she wishes hers was straight, like mine

November 10th

Tryouts for "Caesar and Cleopatra" I think I'll get Cleopatra because h

Noveet Cleopatra Tony Gearhart is Caesar Ugh I hate hio said that Tony told soet the part because he doesn't like me Because I'm affected What's that supposed to mean? That I don't have a Maine accent? I can't help it He wouldn't go over too big in Detroit, either

Nove dance Everyone in the whole school is going, I think, except o likes me, I think Practically everyone else acts as if they're scared of irls are jealous because I'm pretty What do they have to be jealous of, when the boys don't liketo be back in Detroit

Nove I'm the only one in the whole school who doesn't kno to ski I'll probably read twelve books over the long weekend Margo said the dance was great Who cares

Noveuy at the library His naht o to the ht Mom and Dad say they have to think it over because he's sodeal He's twenty What difference does five years make? Dad is three years older than Moo and I had the neatest tiot a Coke and talked for a long tiraduated froh school here and was captain of the basketball teaoes to Boston to see plays!), Captain Kangaroo (?), Sophia Loren (!), chocolate marshmallow ice cream, cashmere sweaters, and beer (!) I asked hih I probably won't be any good But he has to go back to Darth

November 25th

Terry came over this afternoon and alked in the woods behind ot snow in my boots He asked me to write to him at Dartoodbye I mean really kissed me You can tell he's not just a kid School toreat vacation

December 3rd

The play went pretty well Tony blew a couple of lines, but I remembered all mine Everyone said I looked terrific in my Cleopatra makeup and costume But after it was over (I found out later) all the kids went to Tony's house, and I wasn't invited I don't even care I got a postcard fro stupid

Deceht away His letter was so muchHe talked about his courses He takes Econolish, and Calculus He tona girls' college Then he said no one at Bennington was as pretty asto be a Christ her a new forh to me in school, but then when school ends in the afternoon, it's as if I don't even exist I sit up here in this castle on the hill and feel sorry for ot another letter froned it "Love"

December 19th

I can't believe it! I wrote and asked Terry if he'd be home for vacation in time for the Christmas dance on the 22nd, and he called to say yes! Wait'll I show up at that dumb dance with him That'll put a few people in their places It's too late to get a new dress But I can wear the pink one I got in Detroit last spring No one's seen it here

December 23rd

You should have seen their faces when Terry and I showed up I ot there kind of late He came to pick me up on time, but then we sat in his car outside the school while he drank two cans of beer before ent in I had a couple of sips He said it would be ih school dance without it I think he's probably right But it was a great dance A couple of other guys, high school kids, asked me to dance, but irls watching He brought es, but I' it anyway We made out in the car, afterward, in hts

Deceave me a camera for Christray! Grandeous blouse And I got lots of other stuff But best of allTerry gave ave him a book of Shaw's plays, but he liked it, I could tell I' on a chain around my neck so Mom and Daddy won't see it They'd ask what it means I don't really knohat it means, because I didn't have the nerve to ask Terry that I suppose we're engaged to be engaged, or so I feel so much older than fifteen