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Except, gah He probably wouldn’t

Yes, Lon Holden—otherwise known as est fanboys, but he probably wouldn’t have been too thrilled to find out his daughter’s job of the day included collecting urine from his favorite football players

Not only was that not every father’s big dreairl, but my father’s dream for me was pretty much the opposite of this

Truthfully, it was the opposite of everything I did these days

He wanted me to follow in his footsteps and his father’s footsteps and his grandfather’s footsteps and becoineer just like the rest of the Holden clan

The big plan? To eventually take over our fa firm

I’d been on board I’d been dutiful I’d been everything he wanted o

And then I’d dropped out of college one year away froree and shot it all up in flames

One ineering and Professor Serbin prattled on and on about thermodynamics and the ways they were vital to my future profession, I had an epiphany

An “I can’t fucking do this anyhtbulb moment

It wasn’t out of rebellion, laziness, or“Insta-faree that bored me senseless, and I couldn’t pretend to be someone I wasn’t

Twenty-four hours later and I’d officially dropped all ofprogram

The aftermath wasn’t pretty

My dad had a meltdown

My mom calmly tried to talkjag in the bathrooht no one knew she hid in there

And Grandpa Joe had questioned whether or not I’d fallen ill with a mental breakdown

Fallen ill with a mental breakdown, his words exactly

Like athe flu

Not likely, Grandpa Joe

But I couldn’t be randfather’s reaction or his words It had been the exact kind of response you’d expect to get from a man who had been raised in the “pick yourself up by your bootstraps and get the fuck over it” generation

I, on the other hand, was a eneration pretty much despised and predicted would be the end of civilization as we knew it

I called bullshit to his drament Day was near, I refused to spend the rest ofa career I hated