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Zane shot me a “really man?” look across the fire

But I was over it

So over it

I was over it the day Angelica Greene walked out of my life and into my band mate’s arms

I was over it then

And I was over it now

The only reason I was even involved in it was because she had about just as much shit on me as I did on her — and most days I loved my job

She kicked sand onto my marshmallow

I loved my job

I loved my job

I loved my job

I hated Angelica Greene

Before Heartbreak

New York City — Madison Square Garden

2006

I FIXED THE earpiece and slowly grabbed a stool to sit on while the crowd of ninety percent girls went co litter So onto the stage

“We’re going to slow things down a bit” I chuckled into theintensified I always loved this part The part where thousands of people were silenced just because I wanted theain, nobody ever said fae people

I refused to be that person

Maybe that hy I was the lead singer I was the only one sht up in all the shit that my bandmates found it i sex I wasn’t having and the drugs I wasn’t taking because why ruin a good thing? And our band? The biggest boy band the world had seen — trust ht down a peg or two Already we’d lost one member to rehab, and I’d be damned if we let it happen with the others

It was our last tour stop, then I had a cameo in a movie soon after that Who knew?

A young teen caught h the way she wore her makeup and short skirt told ht leash before she ended up in trouble

God, just listen to me!

At nineteen, I felt like I was pushing thirty

I finished the last set with the guys, hardly re screae

I was exhausted, but I kneas expected before I could sleep Autographs with every single tho’dtheir parents to pay the steep price, and there would be at least a hundred of them

I inwardly groaned while Trevor gave ust He hated it as much as I did — but he faked it better than any of us Maybe it was because he was a cocky piece of work and people expected him to be a bit rude, who knew? If I was the frontman he was a close tie, h he hated the label

Andrew jerked off his headset and cursed “Let’s just get this shit over with”

My thoughts exactly

It had been fun ere fourteen

It was a blast ere sixteen

But now that ere all pushing twenty and twenty-one, antedto everyone, and I could see it in their eyes when they talked to friends back hoe, friends who actually had lives

Friends anted ours

Without having any idea, the sacrifices made to have it

We were basically shoved toward the dressing rooiven snacks and soain

The first girl that cah was quiet

The second sobbed

I gave her a tissue

I think it made her cry harder

It went on like that for two hours, until finally, the last girl walked through

I narrowed my eyes

She was older than thirteen — that sae, too pretty to be by herself and too da such a short skirt

Feeling like a total pervert, I looked away

Only to see Andrew’s eyes bulging out of his head

I elbowed him

He coughed and elbowed Ty who in turn elbowed Trevor, yeah so all of us were elbowing, nobody was talking

“Hi!” she said, her voice lit with excite hi or if you’re being weird” She thrust out her hand Her fingernails were covered in pink nail polish, bangles clanged against her wrist, and a small bird tattoo covered the expanse of pink skin just below the last bangle My fingers twitched with the sudden alarelica—”