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I miss him, and not just when I’etting ho up with us for a few hours, spending ti with the thele of li each other to the bedroo it to the bed, soainst the wall Me, bent over and holding onto anything I could grab We’d stay quiet, the soft slapping of our bodies barely audible above our heavy breathing and desperatecoave me his release and every ounce of love he could pour out of hi at each other, his s, pushing back inside of me

I’d fall asleep wrapped in his ar so small and so safe, my heart so full of him

I love nights with Ben, but right now, and for the past two s

While I’ for work And because I’h bedtiainst any walls or tearing off etting off I’ off

In fact, that hasn’t been happening much at all lately

Two boys tearing through this house, exploring and getting into anything and everything, with one now unfortunately out of the nap stage has et any alone tiht shift and I can’t re at each other without i interrupted

It’s like kids have this built-in radar This sixth sense that goes off whenever Daddy grabs Mo is honestly quite impressive They never miss a beat

It wasn’t so bad before I would laugh it off and grab Ben’s face, kissing his scowl and proet the kids to sleep and then he’d graband not caring as doing what as long as it was happening And it was always happening

Now? Nobody’s grabbing or tasting anything We don’t have our nights When Ben’s ho hisis ass backwards

But, there is a light at the end of this o back to our routine of stolen kisses and heated seconds before one or two little faces catch us And when they do, not if, it won’t be detri words I don’t want repeated, but we’ll have those sweet hours between evening and dahere there’s nothing and no one between us

No interruptions Just two pounding hearts, feverish touches, and that quiet climb toward rapture, followed by the sweet, blissful fall

Sliding beneath the cool sheets, I exchange Ben’s pillow forhis scent soak into s That distinct Ben smell that carries so many memories with it

Ones of us together, that night after the bar My first hit

God, I’ve been addicted to him ever since

I flip onto ht stand I brush my hair out of my face and type a quick text

Me: Missing you XO

Holding the phone abovehi it I scroll to Tessa’s number and hit dial

She answers after two rings

“I don’t know about you, but I a laid’ train”

“What?” I chuckle, shakingoutabout?”

“Not the way I want to be!” She sighs “ILuke up for a nooner, but Ito repopulate the earth after an apocalypse”

“Well, be grateful you’re at least able to sneak it in during the day Even with Chase taking a nap I can’t catch a break Nolan can’t be unsupervised”

It’s bad tiether fro

When this dreaded night shift started, Nolan was in school for half of the day As long as Chase went down for his nap, I could have some alone time with Ben