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“Can you tellyou tell e you” I had to squeeze her to get her talking, but once she started, it was like a dah, she told me a story pretty much like the one her housekeeper had told Sheila Only hearing it repeated in her soft broken voice was ten times worst

I took it all in, letting her hurt and pain wash overit intoas much as I’d like it to, it doesn’t work that way I’d only just startedthat would bring any heat back on et more involved in her shit, I’d have to put mine on hold at least for a while so I could put all my effort into her

Who a? I think I knew that the first moment she lefther life worst is the only thing keepingthat door But how much worst will it be if I leave her there after the stunt I’d pulled this weekend? Wouldn’t that be like dangling a carrot in her face and then snatching it away? That ht make me even worse than all the other fuck ups in her life

I becah the thin quilt and so both innocent and wild, caile be all alone in the world with no one to turn to? But aers she , the idea that she could end up seeking solace from one of those freaks spurred me on to make a decision

I closedspace in ht her back in, only her, nothing else My heart knehat she needed I just needed to be sure that I could deliver It’s going to take a chunk of tiive, and will most likely put my own plans on hold for a while

Just the fact that I was even giving it any thought was enough Nothing has ever swayedBut her, I’ht have wanted to keep out, had already crept in when I wasn’t looking To think of leaving her the way things now feel like a betrayal I don’t do betrayal Only men of low morals do

I opened ain once I came to a decision, one that I hope we can both live with It wasn’t an easy one, but it’s the one that leftother needs ahead of ave her a year?

“If I asked you to trust me, could you do that?”

“What do you ers “No more tears” Please, for the sake of fuck no et me to do next

“I et better from here on out, would you believe me?”

What the hell a else that I never do But I can’t help it, can’t stand to see her cry or hear that note of defeat in her voice

“I don’t know if I can Everyone else who’s tried has failed Eventhey tried worked I’ht o to waste There’s no way Becky will lether into ly

“You’re afraid of her”

“I’m not sure that it’s fear, o with it since there’s no point in fighting a losing battle” Nothing I like e the subject before she leads me to murder all the same

“By the way, I gave you a list of things to work on Have you looked it over yet?”

“I did, but I don’t understand sos you have written on there”