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They always ended withup startled Occasionally, I would wake up screa

I was thankful this tiht closer If we kept sharing the same bed Eventually, she would be there for a worse drea from

She needed to know before that happened, but I just wasn’t ready yet Not to let so was, usually, when I went back to sleep it was dreaive htmares Like usual, I drifted back to sleep quickly and dreamed no more

When I woke up, Desiree was already awake She hadn’tup She was on the last few pages of her book when I glanced at her She saw ht smile on her face

“Good et any more sleep?”

“Yeah,” I said “I’ll go make some coffee You finish your book”

“Are you sure? I don’tit”

“No, stay co out of the bed “I slept too late anyway”

Making an the routine of es to my life that had happened since she came into it I used to wake up, drink water, and work out straightaway Coffee didn’t make its way into my syste, often starting breakfast before downinga

As soon as the coffee was going, I drank water and tried to shake off the feeling that I was getting too close I knew this is what people did Theya relationship with someone But I didn’t really kno much of a relationship we had How much of this was real and howto keep her alive? I didn’t really know

What I did knoas that she was trying to get me to open up to her And I wanted to, but I held a sense of hesitation and that buggedpart of ht in the cabin alone were I was starting to feel myself crack But I didn’t want to let her in, not when it would s that haunted me

And the reason why I deserved every single bit of it Every single nighthosts ofas I kept breathing, it would keep happening No htmares That was if she didn’t run away from me the second she heard them anyway I wouldn’t blame her

I deserved that too

“Thank you,” she said as I brought the coffee into the bedroom

Normally, I would never eat or drink in the bed It was just not so I would ever allow myself to do, even when sick I’d rather curl up on the couch, s and pillows, than actually sullyabout the way Desiree looked, curled up in the bed, the sheets over her lap, made me want to let her stay there I sat the coffee down beside her on the nightstand and went back for a cup ofto allow myself to sit on the bed with it, but I sat on the love seat at the end of the bed instead, turned so I could watch her read

Thewas fairly peaceful after that I was tired fro ood We ate breakfast in relative quiet, but the tension had lowered quite a bit It was alh there was still a little bit of aardness in it As I did dishes, she finished her book, putting it back on the bookshelf She see, and I wipedto her

“Everything okay?” I asked

“I need sos from my house,” she said tis there that I really need, and I don’t want to bother Brett to go get theo back there”