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“No, I know that You’re right Okay, here goes nothing”

I have the van packed and ao Seth should be hoo On the one hand, it could be fantastic On the other, not so much And I wanted to be prepared to leave just in case I still have a space reserved at the RV park outside of tohere I spent the first feeeks I lived here

I’ve scrubbed the bathroom and kitchen, mopped all the hardwood in the house, and did a ton of laundry I even changed the sheets on the bed, and I just did that yesterday

I had to direct y somewhere

Seth’s truck coravel, and he parks in his usual spot I walk out onto the porch, and he stops in his tracks, his dark eyes serious as he watchesmy face

“Did you have a lot of fence toand pullopposite

“Not too ood day to be on a horse Hoas your day?”

I nod, looking out at the trees that separate Seth’s house from his parents’ “Fine”

We’re silent for a moment, and then I look back at him and shake my head

“No, it wasn’t fine I’m not fine at all”

“Talk to me, babe”

Babe It’s the first sign of hope that I’ve seen fro

“I know that the idea of kids isn’t high on your list of good things,” I begin “And I’ve never really thought that I’d have a family, either It definitely wasn’t in my plans or even on my radar”

“You’re pregnant,” he says

“I didn’t say that” He’s not showing any e away, and I hate that I feel so distant from hinant right now or not, I want kids, Seth”

“Did you take a test?”

“Four of the water and peeing on sticks”

“And?”

“I’nant”

“Oh, thank God” He hangs his head in relief, and I just sit here, staring at him