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I don’t try to be perfect one hundred percent of the time”

“You don’t?”

Okay fine—I do “Not on purpose It was drilled into me by my parents”

“Right Exactly But so to be Like sex It’s…” She waves her hands around “Messy and unpredictable Sometimes it’s too slow and soht—but who’s to say when that will be?”

Why is sheabsolute perfect sense? “You’re not pissed I…” I s, unable to finish the sentence

“That you…were so excited you came before I did?”

That’s putting it gently “I didn’t just come before you did I came like—after thirty seconds”

Why I feel the need to point this out is beyond me

But oddly enough, I don’t feel so self-conscious about it any it

Iine that

Lilly laughs, a delighted little trill “See! At least we can talk about it” She looks so pleased “This is what I wanted—this is why I kept trying to get you to talk toback and forth between our bodies with her hands

She is aniht—so much more than at the dinner table earlier I knew she wasn’t sure how to behave in front ofthe tension I’ve created

Yeah—this was allme a chance to fix it

I wring my hands nervously, in uncharted territory

“So you’re not upset that I came too quickly?” I cannot believe those words just left my mouth and I didn’t choke on them

Lilly takes a second to think about her answer, shifting her position fro her knees She looks vulnerable but also comfortable in the space

“I wouldn’t say I’, I’m upset about the way you handled the situation and less upset about the actual act itself? If that makes any sense I don’t like how you reacted—it bothers me”

I mull this over in my brain “I wasn’t sure how to react—obviously I was e like that has ever happened tocompletely transparent, I don’t have much experience with sex I wish I did, but I don’t Maybe that’s what part of the issue was—I got inside my own head”

“What do you think I want frood? I slept with you because I feel like we have an emotional attachment—or, a connection I mean I really…like you, Roman I like you a lot”