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Wow

I feel e, disappointment, and humiliation Briefly wonder how my dad feels about this sudden develop the holiday, or if she even discussed it with him Pointless to ask; she steamrolls over everyone and wouldn’t take his opinion into consideration even if he did have one

My nose tingles, a telltale sign that I’m about to cry

Me: Okay

I tossup at the ceiling, blinking back tears

It’s been a shitty few days—a shitty week, really, and this news makes it all the worse

First Roiving?

Great

Not like it’s my favorite holiday—I don’t particularly care for turkey But that’s hardly the point, is it? The point is,on a vacation with their friends and don’t give a crap that I’ll be alone

On top of that, I had sex with Ro me, which makes me feel furious and abandoned

Ro with hireat up to that point—if I hadn’t called hione hoone ho

A blow to a guy’s pride when he’s not good in bed can scar him for life, or so I’ve heard

Fine

I know exactly why he’s avoiding me, but that doesn’t make it easier

I want toin self-pity, allowingthe things I cannot change:

My mother and her inability to be maternal

The shift in my relationship with Roman

The house is quiet

I’one, but I’er home

Rolling to the side, I groan Beat fro, my muscles are sore and could use a stretch

A good ill do the trick

Yes

I should get up and move around rather than lie here motionless

Rising, I res and a navy hoodie before lacing up rab et

It’s not dark out, but it will be soon I lock the door behindthe street

The leaves on the trees have changed colors and begun falling, a sign that the cold weather of winter is approaching I kick at a few, loving the sound of the on my way down the sidewalk

So in front of Ro; people are howhatever treats Eliza has put out

I stuffawker

A gust of wind blows, leaves swirling around me