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“I have a lot of work to do tonight, Jocelyn,” he says and my heart starts to beat faster and louder “I don’t think I’ht”

What’s going through ? Ever been rejected for sex before? From a man? It’s almost unheard of for women to be told no What does that make me feel like?

Shaly

You name it

“But you go on withoutjust fine on your own”

And with that he turns toward the dresser, takes the coat of his suit off, grabs his slippers and puts them on and turns back to the door

All without a second glance inthere like some unwanted sex doll

Fuck This was all a waste My entire e is a waste My life is a waste

But before you go telling me to cheer up, babe, let me just clue you in on why I even did all this Why I went to La Perla Why I basically tried to initiate this whole intimate encounter

Had Michael succue that we had actually had sex That our relationship would have been consummated

See, it wasn’t bad enough that I was forced into this e What’s worse is that for the last six months, ever since we’ve been married, I don’t think Michael Anders has touched me once in private Never a kiss unless it's in front of the camera Never a stare of desire e’re alone

Some couples have their whole relationships based around sex

Ours revolves around a lie

Michael stops at the edge of the door right before walking out Without turning to me, he speaks to me

“By the way,” he says coldly “Lance has gone and gotten hied for hi over to stay the summer with us I think I want to use hin”