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We get inside her tiny aparthts on Theagainst my chest as she looks into my face expectantly Her eyelids start to droop, and she parts her lips, waiting forChrist, why isfucking hard, letwrong! What the fuck a here? Fuck!

I take one step back, pushing her away fro over her face

“Is there so in

“Yeah,” I say at once “Where’s the fucking goldfish?” With that, I turn onbolt

I leave her there, completely stunned, and enter the elevator without even bothering to look back This was fucking harsh of ainstlove her What the fuck was I thinking, going out at night looking for fucking trouble? The woman I love is at home

She toldBut her words don’t ring true, and fuckto the bottom of this!

As I step out into the cold New York streets, there’s a look of deter renewed My head is clear,up on the woht be a fucked up one, if I take ive two fucks about that

For the first ti life, I knohat the word love

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Jocelyn

This is my first major appointment Where is he? I take my phone out of my purse and tap it on The screen comes to life and my eyes scan for the ti to show up, and I guess I shouldn't be surprised He wasn't particularly interested in joining , he opened his newspaper and without so reed to come to keep up appearances "Maybe a reporter will see us walking out of the office," he said, almost to himself Is that really all he thinks about?

"Mrs Anders, we're ready for you" My mind snaps back to the present

I look up fro a clipboard Well, it looks like I'll need to handle this appointather ins by taking ht, temperature, and blood pressure She asks me an assortment of personal questions, such as when my last period was, and whether or not I s pre-natal vitaation I', she instructs own—it' a far cry from the dresses in my wardrobe—and then she says that the doctor will be withon the exanant with another man's baby, and to top it off, that man happens to be my stepson How in the hell did my life take this turn? But before I can mentally answer that, I hear a soft knock at the door, and my OBGYN walks in He's in his mid-50s with a bushy white mustache He has a jovial twinkle in his eyes

"Are you ready to see your baby today?" he asks with more enthusiasm than I expected

Wait I didn't realize I was going to see anything at this appointment, and I'm immediately nervous "I a more excited?