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Luke hesitated “I don’t want to leave you alone, man”

“Get the fuck out Please, just leave” I felt his presence for a few er As soon as I heard the door close, I dropped to an to cry

It was the day after I had found out, and two days since she’d died

It still felt so unreal, like at anyher to call, or knock onand drinking They were the only two things that took my mind off this whole mess

I hadn’t called work, orto say

All I kneas I had to get the hell out of there Everything reminded ht before in a pair of tracksuit pants, oblivious to the minus two frost The bed reminded ining her sitting there, laughing Every tih, only to opentemperature made me numb, but it didn’t dull the pain

Racing through the bedroo it up, I threw it over rabbedthat was es, her picture, everything that I had of her was on my phone Without that, it was like she never existed in my life

I ju All I kneas I needed to get out of the city, and I needed alcohol Lots of Alcohol I stopped by a bottle shop and stocked up on scotch

As I clio I headed in the direction of the lake house It was the only place I knew nobody would find me The only people who knew about this place were Dad and Alex Alex was overseas, and Dad had ive a shit about me

My mind replayed my final minutes with Belle over and over, each ti to stop her fro

If she had never one back to the restaurant I was a fucking inary rabbit, the car swerving on the road I gained back control, ht now, the same way Belle’s life ended? All I would have to do was speed up and slam into a tree My foot pressed on the accelerator, the car slowly gaining speed The road was slippery fro made it difficult to see more than a fewthe neck of a bottle of scotch I held it between s and unscrewed the top

I lifted the bottle to my lips and drank More than a an to burnthe open bottle next to me on the seat, I slowed down

The lake house ca structure nestled a the car in the driveway, I got out, taking the bottle with

Belle would’ve loved it here It was the perfect location for a roetaway Or a place full of e up here didn’t seem like the best idea, but I was too tired and drunk to do anything about it

Grabbing the other bottles from the back seat, I went inside It had been years since I’d ventured up there, but it looked just the same, albeit a little dustier I pulled a sheet off an armchair and sat down It was a recliner, so I putco down to take another sip of scotch Was I trying to drinkmy car hadn’t worked, so I didn’t expect this to work either