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I told the Every word spoken by Me I had seen in Heaven and in Hell and on Earth I told them about the smell and the colors of Jerusalem I told them and told them and told them

The story devoured the night It ate the hours, as I paced, raving, repeating those parts I wanted to get exactly right, the stages of Evolution which had shocked the angels, and the vast libraries of Heaven, and the peach tree with both bloo on his back in Hell, refusing to give in I described to theia Sophia I talked about the naked men on the battlefield Over and over I described Hell I described Heaven I repeated my final speech, that I couldn't help Memnoch, I couldn't teach in this school!

They stared at me in utter silence

"Do you have the veil?" Dora asked, her lip quivering "Do you still have it?"

So tender was the tilt of her head, as if she'd forgive ave it to a beggar!

"The veil proves nothing," I said "Whatever is on the veil ! Anyone who can make illusions like that can make a veil!It proves neither truth nor lies, neither trickery nor witchery nor theophany "

"When you were in Hell," she asked, so kindly, so gently, her white face shining in the warer you had the veil?"

"No, Memnoch wouldn't let me And I only saw him for a minute, you see, one second it was one way, and then it was another But he's going up, I know he is, he's going because he's clever and he's figured it out, and Terry will go with hiician and all of this was a lie, but a lie for what? For what purpose?"

"You don't believe what Memnoch asked of you?" asked Armand

Only at this moment did I realize how shaken he was, how like the boy heand full of earthly grace He wanted it to be true!

"Oh, yes, I do!" I said "I believed him, but it could all be a lie, don't you see?"

"Didn't you feel it was true," asked Armand, "that he needed you?"

"What?" I de whether or not e serve Satan we serve God? You and Louis arguing about that in the Theater of the Vampires, if we are children of Satan, are we children of God?"

"Yes!" said Armand "Did you believe him?"

"Yes No I don't know," I said "I don't know!" I shouted it "I hate God as much as I ever did I resent them both, damn them!"