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“Open up, Aubrey”
I shake h he can’t see me
“Come on I’m an idiot Just open up, and we’ll talk about this”
I don’t want to Maybe I’s and embarrassed me in front of people who are important to him
I don’t want to talk to him I don’t want him to see me cry
“I need so to turn the knob
I hear him walk away, and I bury my face in a pillow
All I can smell is him
“Damn it,” I mutter and set the pillow aside I stare at the wine but decide against it
I have to work toover, especially when it’s with small children
Instead, I just roll into a ball on the bed and let myself have a cry-fest
I’ve gotten good at keeping a hard shell over the years Being the ho teased a lot
I have thick skin
But I’d let myself soften toward Zane over the past feeeks To trust that he wouldn’t be one of the people who’d hurt s
And yet, here we are
My feelings are hurt, one, and I’m just…sad
I left the condo before the sun ca so I didn’t have to see Zane
Is that chickenshit of me? Yes But I don’t care
It was a brutal h, because the kids are used to being home and in a different routine for a couple of days So, there was so