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I couldn't re my head clear so I could find the bust of Vitellius and Thatcher

Not a very convincing argu sex with Tenn If I slept with hiht?

Hard to argue with that point Not sleeping with Tenn was doing nothing for my brain, that was for sure

So why? Why did I keep telling Tenn, ‘No?’ Why did I keep tellingjust for me? It felt like years, thirteen of the just for me

I wanted him Wanted Tenn Wanted him in a way I'd never, ever wanted aI'd ever experienced

Letting out another sigh, I knew that was the answer to my question I was in deep with him after only a few days All these years of caution, and this one

This thing between us couldn't go anywhere For so many reasons I had a life a thousand e A lot of it, a significant chunk currently sleeping in a pillow fort two stories below Tenn and I didn't have a future

I was fending him off because I was afraid for my heart, not my body My body was pretty clear on what it wanted Tenn Full stop My heart was at a loss I already wanted more than just his body I wanted his sh I wanted to curl up in bed and read with hi to happen

So what?

The thought caught in my head

So what?

So what if eren't going to have a fairy tale romance?

Did that mean I should slink off and deny myself at least part of what I wanted?

If I can't have the fairy tale, I won't have anything at all?

Every cell in my body tossed out that idea

My heart could be a fool, but ht the other day? Just a taste Even if I couldn't keep Tenn, I could have just a taste, couldn't I? We were both adults We both wanted it Why not? Wouldn't a little bit of Tenn be better than none at all?