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I hadn’t hts on exactly as going on in Julia’s twisted little mind I’d never expected to have to say theht, was not an outcome I’d anticipated

“Okay, so you did do that bad thing But if she pushed you to it—”

“What if she did?” I laughed, sharp and loud, and heard a noise elsewhere in the house Muuy is such a loser he lets a girl fuck with hiirl eventually, right?”

“Youterrified but there she was, looking me between the eyes She stood and stepped over to poor Fuzzy, and didn’t break that gaze until she had to She knelt in front of hi baby, and brought hi to try tofor it right now, aren’t you? You’re paying every day”

There were all sorts of things I didn’t want to tell her—didn’t want to say out loud to anyone, ever—but I told her anyway “Wellnowhere, in case you didn’t guess And Mum doesn’t have any trust for me any more I mean she had no idea Julia even existed before, so it must have seemed bad when she first learned… but she never once askede in her eyes before this, to get that sort of response And I wasn’t fucking kidding when I said Julia just wants to keep et into, if they’re big enough she can blend in and she thinks I’ll be there She knows she could put an end tome violate that order She knows it fucksit She just wants to keep fucking et back with her for good and without the dramas, and then she’ll drop it”

“You could never get back with her now,” Tamara proteste

d “Her parentsorder… They’ll never let you anywhere near her”

“Well that’s just it, sweetheart By letting her completely blow up my brain the way I did, I’ve made myself into the perfect toy for her We can never be properly together now Even if the people around her acceptedaway froainst my name, and no way to clear it”

I was surprised when I realised why Tary—well, ouldn’t she be? Her own father was as twisted as Julia had ever been Her mother hadn’t even somewhat escaped

Tamara cuddled et involved in this situation with Jess ”

It was not the co aboutI’d done

Even if it hadn’t been for Para, there was no way I could have turned away from Tamara now I owed her this… she deserved it

“I’ to protect you”

She ca between both our knees, and put her lips to mine, her eyes on mine It was like a request, and at first I tried to push her away by holding her shoulders… then I gripped tighter I letto do ere behind closed doors, away from anyone?

That burst of confidence didn’t last very long I reluctantly pushed her back, let Fuzzy tuain