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Not even if it was just once Not even if he realised right in the ised, and ain Not that he hadtalked about was me

Yeah, Ms Miller I was more than fine without the lecture

But I got the point I couldn’t risk doing anything to Roho didn’t have any reason to hold back if I pissed hi to Tamara, but I needed to keep her in line She needed to feel like fucking with me was a bad idea

And, honestly, I was finding it pretty hard to stay away froirls I wanted to fuck and not been able to make it ith before, that wasn’t the issue There was just so about Taht, and it made me react in this really stupid juvenile here I wanted to pull her hair and trip her in the corridors and all this irl, ever Not even Julia, and to say she’d gottenit

Maybe this was just hoith any girl I stood a chance of getting into a real relationship with Maybe all the fucking hell Julia had put ood of all womankind, after all

But why the fuck would I be luether, and n you’d found soirlfriend

My headsense at theeverything I could to stay away from her

So of course I was slinking around after her and watching her even when there was a good chance she could see ot to confirm she took care of that little issue she’d been weirdly weak on, and I saw lots of evidence she wasn’t back to normal

And I felt really shit about it actually Maybe there was actually no way to justify what I was doing to her But I couldn’t work out hoas going to turn things around, either

It just led toI could think to do And it didn’t leadI didn’t see soed h that she caed e me directly, it seemed like it would be hot as

By Friday, I was ready to do soood reaction out of her But the hours rolled by that day and I didn’t actually co I could do that wouldn’t blow up in my face

Then at lunch, I hurried to her locker, determined to catch her this ti lunches—I hadn’t spotted her once over the lunch break that week She had to be doing it on purpose

When I nearly collided with her headed away from her locker, I stopped still in theto make sense of what had just happened

Ta her school backpack, and wherever she was headed, I’d bet it had nothing to do with me or with her education

And I was never going to just leave it at that As soon as I was sure she had no idea I was even around her I was h a side exit between two buildings that would have been a lot undy if anyone knew it existed I kneas there, and I wasn’t at all surprised Ta notice