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I press the soft fabric into my face and sniff

Perfuh to know that Ryan is a liar I bet he didn’t fire his secretary Even if he did, hequickly and charmed her onto his cock already

Oh, sweet Ryan, now you’ve really made me mad

You’ve made me really, really… mad

My knees drop to the ground, no longer capable of holdinglike panic seizesclaws My face contorts as tears spring to le sob breaks loose, destroying the fragile dam More sobs follow suit as a sharp pain stabs at my chest

I’ve given hi I had inplatter My heart in theopenly for him And he took a knife and ripped it apart anyway

I press the shirt toto allow ive I’ve done so

I allowbefore I calm, slowly but surely My tears dry,settles deep into my chest I’m not sure what it is, but it’s cold and hard and takes all of the feelings I had for Ryan and sucks the Dyson vacuu shifts, hardens and then numbs

Everything he’s done to ivable Not the hitting, thein fear and anxiety All of it No more

And ive myself Ever since the day in the library with Mako, I’ve been beatingbecause I’m a cheater and a whore just like Ryan has always accusedI couldn’t eat or sleep for the last few days

And for no reason Because Ryan has been cheating onso Mako was even a consideration Ryan has never deserved my loyalty I mean really, what has he done to deserve it?

I can’t believe I actually stayed this long I can’t believe I let him treat me this way The physical and sexual aspect isn’t even the worst part, it’s the fucking ames he played It’s not just erous than a raised hand The gaslighting and manipulation is what convinces victims to stay and endure They train you to protect yourself, ultinize yourself You’re a prisoner in your own ho you stay out, who you’re allowed to see, and god forbid you hang out with anyone without their supervision Too scared to look nice in fear of accusations of cheating But you’re going to leave the house looking like that? God, you’re e, put some make-up on at least But only wear it when I’ to impress other men

You’re dressed up, who are you looking nice for?

Do you want men to look at you like that? Do you want them to fuck you?

Please, baby, I get so worried that so and take you away from me