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He inclines his heard towards the nightstand next to lance beside me and see a half-filled bottle of water and a couple of Tylenol I don’t like that the water has been opened, but at theme noould he? He already has rab the bottle, I see er It’s black and blue and bent unnaturally The sight of brings back the rush of pain For a single otten about that Now, it’s all I can feel

Ignoring the pain, I grab the bottle with ood hand and take a few s the two pills down er If I had to endure this from the man I love, at least let me be buzzed while I do it

“How do you feel?” he asks

I want to rage at him Ask him the cliché questions How could you? Why would you do soht you loved me…

But I don’t I just stare at hiry about ry about the violation of my body Like a coward, he drops his eyes to my body To what he’s done to me while I was unconscious fro like this again

He promised

When his eyes lift to ives irlfriend, River I own you I can fuck you whenever I want”

“Did you have to do it while I was knocked out? After you knocked e

Another shrug “Why not? Your pussy was available, and it turneddeal?” he asks, his voice growing agitated He acts as if I’ why he would rape me is an absolute preposterous question

I suck my bottom lip into my teeth I don’t want to piss him off more

“Would you have said no toto a softer tone He sounds a little hurt, and it pulls atto do anything that irlfriend would be so hurtful to you”

I frown Having sex with your partner isn’t hurtful, he’s right about that But that doesn’tso it Consenting to it This isn’t the sa me up to the pleasure of sex—that I’d always be okay with There was no waking up No opportunity to say yes or no A dark feeling coats the inside of my body

I feel used and dirty I feel… foreign inside my own body

“I just… I just wish I could’ve experienced it with you,” I whisper finally His face softens

“I’ neouldn’t mind if you had sex with me if I was knocked out”