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Both make me want to kill him

“Are you trying to wake up inme back to the conversation

I frown “Well, no”

“Then shut your pretty et some sleep”

The door clicks behind him before I can open my pretty mouth and tell hi me, but there’s an odd part of me that feels like I’m still supposed to hate him

More than likely, it stems from that fucked up part of me that feels loyal to Ryan But after what he did today, I think it’s ti a lesser version of Billy

An absolute piece of shit

I was so desperate for love and human connection, that I fell for all his bullshit Even when there were people literally shoving the facts down my throat And all I did was spit them back in their face

God, Alison It hurts to adain, that’s only my pride I ful to her Part of that was due to jealousy, the other part because of the things Ryan fed me about her

Alison and Ryan grew up together, though Alison is e Their parents were best friends, and they fell into that cliché fairytale The parents pushed thehout high school and ale career before they split

He insisted she was a crazy bitch that cheated on him constantly and stalked him when he left her His claims never matched the Alison I interacted with, but I convincedbitch when all along, it was Ryan

She was neverto help another woman

“She was right,” I whisper aloud “And I’ idiot”

“RIVER, WHAT THE HELL is going on? Why the hell didn’t anyone tell me you were in the hospital? Why wouldn’t Ryan call me? And if you lie to me, you’re on diaper duty for a full week Don’t fuck with h the phone Her threat makes me smile Diaper duty with athe truth

But alas “I was jumped in Shallow Hill I don’t knoho And Ryan… Ryan made it worse”