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I wasn’t sure if that hy Cristian had eitile his life with mine, make it impossible to escape
Instead of ju Felix’s hair out, instead of calling the police, FBI or whoever the fuck dealt with shit like this, I cal and took the email to the partners I accepted their praise, pronored the quirk of Edwin’s brow—he likely suspected I’d done soet this client, and he was impressed I accepted the workload that came with Cristian’s business and lockedthe flask I kept in encies I didn’t even stay until five, I left early, as soon as my flask was empty
Then I went home to an empty apartment
It was hours later and I was slightly buzzed when I realized that I hadn’t asked about Pete About where he was, if he was even still alive
“You are still clinging on to that i to deny all of your sordid wants You are going to act disgusted at this turn of events, but it excites you”
I stood in thein my head As much as I hated him, understood that he was a monster, a criminal, I hated the fact that he knew me more That he saw me In a way no one else ever had He’d forced me to see myself
My past was clinging to me now, stuck to my shadow, much too close I’d never hid frootten ed it all But I’d distanced myself Split myself in two
Now that those torlds, those two versions of ether, I couldn’t avoid who I was What I was
A monster Just like him
My phone buzzed frorateful for the distraction because I had no fucking clue what to do with myself
A car will be downstairs in five minutes It will take you to me
My fingertips tingled as I read the text, knoho it was ithis to unnervethis to communicate ho choices I had here
My fingers moved quickly
Fuck you
The typing dots appeared immediately
I believe I already did that