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And my desires resulted in my demise

Even if there was a chance he was bluffing, it was not one I’d take There were a lot of things I could live eighing on ed to find pieces of ly

“You’re a monster,” I sneered

He raised his brow “Isn’t that what you like about me?”

I dugthe pain to stop the tears pricking the backs of s I hated about myself was my tendency to cry when I was majorly pissed off It was rooted in the way our society tried to sha it Angry women weren’t desirable Weren’t feminine They were viewed as crazy

Tears werethe only way they could Which only reinforced the idea that women were overly emotional, unstable Weak

“You can force me to marry you,” I hissed “And I’ll do it because I’m not a ain,” I vowed

“You will be loith the carnalbody responded

“That’s rape,” I seethed “What you’re talking about, as, is rape” My voice shook as I spoke My knees were barely holdingat me to run Yet I stayed put

I watched him stand, round the desk and walk toward hso loud, I was sure he could hear it

Why wasn’t I running? Why wasn’t I at least trying to fight?

Because, on some level, I wanted him closer

My body got the memo when he wasto the floor around me as I slammed into a bookshelf I barely noticed them And that did not stop Cristian’s approach He lifted his hands to rest on the shelf on either side ofme